the last n final post in the year of 2010...

hmm...

it is still left less than 10 hours in the last day of the year 2010...

come to think of what i have done among the year of 2010 and gonna try to summarize it up...

let me think..

what the hell i have done during the year 2010~?

frankly speaking, nothing much i have done during the year 2010...

but i'm gonna think hard and squeeze something out to write about...

starting from the beginning of this year..

i started to blog more often...

about 5-7 posts per month...

and i think i should try to post more often in 2011..

hopefully i can post up 1 article per day~ 

haha..

for my study..

i think the result of mine is not so good in this year..

i hope i can get a higher grade and have more motivation to study in 2011..

hopefully can have my loan again on next next semester..

and hope that my grade will increase instead of decrease starting next semester...

starting Jan 2011..

i have 2 basketball competition that i am going to participate...

after such long time lack of training..

hopefully can train back my previous level of skills..

and hope that me and my teammates can work together in a team to strive for champion...

We Are The CHAMPION~~~!!

it's been 2 years that i stay single already..

hopefully in the year 2011...

i will find someone that is special to me..

and get in relationship..

this because buddy around me almost all have found their other half already...

and sometimes feel a bit awkward to be the only single person among all couples when going out together...

hahaha...

Lastly..

hopefully my family condition can become better and better...

and my friends and family can stay healthy always...

and wish all my wishes will come true...

~~*Happy New Year 2011*~~

short post

i think i have been neglected my blog for maybe 2 weeks??

hahaha...

last few weeks i were getting ready for my final exam..

and then after exam i cannot straight away online and update my blog because i got nothing to write about..

no inspiration and motivation to write a thing at all~~

haizz~

that day..

as soon as i finished my last paper..

i went to the saloon to get myself a haircut..

and i also change my hairstyle...

i curled my hair...

and it takes me quite some times to do it...

and uncertainty is striking me when i were sitting there...

here is my hair after that :

this is the so-called...BIRD NEST head~!!

hahahaha....

now i plan to go dye my hair after i go back to kampar...

and get myself ready for Chinese New Year..

hahahaha...

i think i will end my post here...

happy new year to all of my readers here...

wish u all have a prosperous new year...

stay healthy and safe always...

=)

自杀

最近自杀风气很旺下呢~~
搞得各个网络、报章杂志、电视新闻都在大事报道及关注。。
还真的是闹得满城风雨、鸡飞狗走~~
弄得人人看到类似自杀的讯息都要变得神经兮兮。。
哪怕一个不小心或不注意就有在酿成人命伤亡啊~~
但是当中也有些人是看到前者有人受到大家的瞩目也就跑去搞自杀。。
借此来让自己的人气提升或提高自己的知名度。。
但我也真搞不懂。。
以这种方法来得到关注，值得吗？？！


自杀真的能解决问题吗？？
还是只是一种逃避责任的方法？？

我个人认为。。
自杀绝对是解决不了问题的。。
就算你死几十次、几百次、几千次都好，问题依然存在。。
所谓解铃还须系铃人。。
一死根本就不能解决问题。。
除了你勇敢的面对才能解决。。
再来，自杀也可算是最对不起父母的。。
无论在自杀前，遗书里或是任何形式上对父母献上再多的道歉或对不起都好。。
一旦动手了，你就是所谓的不孝子了。。
试想想：如果没你父亲的精虫跟你母亲的卵子的结合，经过你母亲怀胎十月，受尽害喜的困扰及痛苦，然后千辛万苦忍受着撕心裂肺的伤痛把你输送到这个世界来的话，你认为你还会有那个机会去搞自杀或作任何对不起你父母的事吗？？
答案是根本没有~！！如果不是你父母赋予你生命，你就什么都不是。。没人会知道你的存在，你也没机会去享受到所谓你亲情、友情、爱情等等。。


麻烦大家请珍惜生命。。
人生短短几十年。。
悲、欢、离、合、喜、怒、哀、乐。。
有了这些，我们的人生才会丰富。。
可能你会觉得你现在很苦很低落。。
但是，试着把头举起来，看看这个世界，看看那那些比你更不幸的，你总该感到一丁点的欣慰。。
因为有时候现在苦，并不代表以后还是会一样啊~~
凡事都一定是先苦后甜嘛。。
经过一番的努力以后，必定能有所改变，根本就不必以死亡来当逃避责任的理由啊~~~
正所谓：不经一番寒刺骨，焉得梅花扑鼻香~~


活下去就有希望~！！
=)

第一张考试完毕~~！

终于。。。
第一张的考卷刚刚考完了。。
60题的选择题。。
我只用了30分钟左右就做完了。。
题目也还好。。
不会太过刁钻。。。
现在让自己休息个一两天，然后再向接下来的考试，也就是最后一张考卷奋斗。。
因为最后一科是注定我这个学期生死的一科。。
也是注定我下个学期会不会拿到钱的一科。。
我一定要好好加油~！！

super duper short update

two week has passed in the month of December..
time really flies..
next Monday, i am going to sit for my first paper..(Pengajian Malaysia)
so i plan to use Saturday and Sunday to study this subject..
hope that i can manage to pass this subject because i don't want to repeat it..
after Monday,i'll have to wait for 10 boring days until i can sit for my second and last subject..(OB)
10 days...
should be enough time for me..(if i did not use that 10 days to do nothing)

arghh~!
recently i really don't know why i keep on having insomnia..
really cant sleep early...
my bed time now already being adjust till 5-6am...
and the time i wake up is 12-1pm..
it's really so damn tiring..
somemore i really don't have the habit of taking naps in the afternoon..
but then i go play basketball in the afternoon somemore..
try to make myself really tired and hope that can sleep early..
yet..the outcomes is quite disappointing..
i totally can't sleep eventhough i am very tired...

hope i can manage to sleep early after monday paper...

it's DECEMBER~

hmm~~~
it's already comes to the last month of the year..
and many people should be planning how to spend their holidays...
there's gonna be Christmas and New Year..
so shoud be many event happening around the place..
yet..
what will i do during this holidays period?
i think maybe i will just stay at home only..
the least also just will hang out with my buddies..
but i think they will also be busy with their other half and got their own plan..
so..
i think if i am going out, i shoud just plan my own schedule..
hahaha~~
SO, anyone that wanna hang out with me just leave me a comment on my facebook wall ya?
haha~ *just joking*

i think i might be go prepare my wishlist for next year since 2010 is gonna end soon..
but start next week, i will be a bit busy to think for the items that are going to be put in my wishlist due to my exam..
the stupid exam will just end at 23rd of December..
i've plan to goin for a haircut after finish my exam on 23rd..
i think this has become a habit for me to get a haircut after exam everytime..
i plan to go curl my hair..
maybe will dye some colour for my hair too...
get myself ready for new year with new hairstyle..
hope my new hairstyle won't scare people lu~~
hahahaha~~

gonna get some sleep soon..
getting tired already..
good nights~!
=)

11走了，12就要来了。。

就这样十一月也来到了最后的几天了。。
十二月也随之而来。。
就这样过了2010年。。
还有一个月多就是新的一年了。。
这一年里，总觉得有点不顺。。
不过生活也过得蛮简单的。。
没太多特别的事情发生。。
最多也只是犯小人，一直无端端被人冤枉罢了。。。
希望明年会有好转吧。。

这个学期真是过得无聊咯。。。
少了两个housemates。。
楼下就变得一片死气沉沉的。。
有时当整间家的人都出去时，我一个人在家就更静。。。
静得蛮恐怖的。。。
不过也还好，我有电脑。。
不然就真的不懂该做什么了。。。
Hmm~有点考虑想当独行侠了。。。
但是我又有点矛盾。。
想热闹点，但又怕人多。。
而且最近也没什么认识到人。。
因为多数都躲在房里。。
所以也比较难。。
真搞不懂什么时候我才能好好的经营我的人脉。。
我也懂人脉对我将来出社会以后是非常重要的。。
但是就真的不懂我自己本身怎么搞的。。
总是不能好好的管理好自己的人际关系或人脉。。。
我觉得是时候找些专家来跟他们讨教一番了。。
哈哈哈~~

这个学期的sem break我将不会回家。。
我会留在金宝。。
我会在考完试之后再回。。
这也是我有史以来最久没回过家的一次咯。。。
下个星期开始就是最后一个teaching week了。。
所以下个星期的课还蛮重要的。。
然后就是开始读书的时候了。。
再来就是等待考完试的那一天了噜~~
两科的考试竟然要两个星期才能搞定。。
而且第二科的考试竟然还跟之前一科相隔了十天。。
看到都整个没心读了咯。。。
都不懂学校怎样拍时间表的。。
排到那么差。。
总之现在我什么都不理。。
等考完了，回到家了，再打算搞些什么东西来玩吧。。。
因为考完的隔一天就是圣诞夜了。。
就看看朋友们有什么plan了。。


是时候睡觉了。。
晚安哦~~~

p/s：好就没唱歌咯~~好想在k房里痛快地发泄大唱一轮~！哈哈哈  =P

recently i m so lack of idea of producing any gud article..
haha..
so i think..this post will oso just will be a short update of what i 've done this few days..

today, i just go n sit for my replacement test..
it's a subject call Pengajian Malaysia..
somthing like Sejarah + Pengajian Am..
so just have to recall back what i've study during form 4 sejarah and form 6 Pengajian Am..
But yet..
i failed to recall back any of them..
so..just simply fill in what i think is correct lor...
and this coming thursday will be the subject's second midterm..
need to study for another 4 chapter again..
hope i know how to answer lo..

then yesterday evening was a crazy evening for me..
why i said it is crazy??
because i were playing shooting balls game with few crazy guys...
the ball game's name was Jackport..
*sound so fabulous huh~?*
bt yet it's a torturing game..
because our punishment for the person who misses the basket need to do 10 times push-up..
then till the end, we keep raising the amount of push-up...
just for the last round only i already done 200 times..
damn those two people who let me kena...
*hear this out~ i will revenge!! i will be back!! muahahahaha*

after a crazy evening yesterday..
today i am totally lifeless..
tired till dunno how to decribe by words..
hahaha
and now...
i have a feeling that i gonna fall sick soon....
i don't want sick...
want sick pun wait after my midterm 2 first....

i got a real bad news about my examination timetable yesterday..
which is my timetable has a 10 days gap between 2 subjects...
and i am just taking 2 subjects only this sem..
it's so torturing....
somemore the day before my second paper is a chinese festival call "Dong Zhi" where family gather around and eat "Tang Yuan"...
and i am going to missed it...
damn hate the school lor~!!

i think i am going to get some rest already..
bye bye~

在这个学期里。。
我慢慢的开始打回篮球。。
人也慢慢的变得比较开朗跟健康。。
不像之前那样整天都呆在房间。。
如果不必要的情况就嫌少踏出家门，甚至房间门一步。。
搞得自己好像患了自闭症+忧郁症那样。。
哈哈哈。。

今天中午。。
终于见到了我约了好几次都不出来的一个女生。。
还蛮不错。。
蛮可爱下的。。
不过见到她也得脱我朋友的福啊。。
要谢谢他约那个女生出来。。。
哈哈哈。。。。
不过你别担心！
我是个讲义气的人，不乱来的。。
哈哈哈哈哈~~~

今天就稍微简短一点。。
因为没什么心情写。。
晚安咯~~ =P

狮子

 众所皆知，狮子是森林之王、万兽之王。。

 给人的感觉就是很有威严，令人肃然起敬。。

 狮子总是散发着一股高人一等的傲气。。

 就仿佛眼前所见的所有东西都在它的统领之下。。

 所有动物都必须对它恭恭敬敬的。。

而且狮子也是勇敢的象征。。

 看它在草原上征服了所有的考验，强壮的活着。。

 而它当然也是个很有野心、很凶狠的一个狩猎者。。

 对着它的猎物张牙舞爪的。。

再来，狮子也象征着华丽的存在。。

 看着它一身金黄色的毛发。。

 经过阳光的照耀后，在那一望无际的草原上更是刺眼得很。。

 果然。。

 万兽之王真的非它莫属啊~~

 

当然，大家也知道狮子是群居动物嘛。。

所以它当然也拥有了善于打交道的能力。。

而且狮子群可是很注重彼此之间的关系的哦~~

所以狮子的幼子在成长过程中是会慢慢被教导如何去处理彼此的关系。。

而且狮子都会跟幼狮玩。。

透过如此的互动就能让幼狮明白个中的一些可以做跟不可以做的事情。。

从而建立起彼此的关系。。

所以说，狮子与生俱来的交际手腕可是一流的哦~~

以上狮子的所有的特征都会出现在狮子座人的身上。。

这是他们出自娘胎就拥有的特征。。

所以要狮子座的人从小就会希望所有的目光都能够聚集在他们身上。。

而且，也比较有领导能力。。

随着慢慢的长大，就开始显现出其他的特性。。

虽然说狮子座的人都拥有着狮子的个性。。

但是也不是说完全没有例外的。。

有些狮子座的人会显得比较自卑。。

也许当中可能有什么原因导致他们会这样。。

有的就没像其他的那么勇敢，那么有胆量。。

只宁愿躲在人家背后当个缩头乌龟。。

当然也有的会比较没有那么合群，那么会处理他们的人际关系。。

社交手腕级差的他们根本就不懂怎么去应付人多的场合。。

不过再怎么说，这些也真的太不像狮子座的作风了。。

可是又必不得已这样。。

改不了。。

而我就是这其中的一个。。

不善于管理自己的人际关系。。

时时都会觉得有点自卑。。

没什么胆量。。

也没什么野心。。

这就是黑暗面的我。。

唉~~~

探索人心虚时的反应之一

我说。。
最近好像还蛮懒的咯。。
好一阵子都没上来写了。。
好像被人催更新了哦~~哈哈哈

*sry ladyjen..hehe*

可我最近也有点怕怕写文章了。。
因为怕有些人会对号入座的呢~
明明都没指名道姓写他/她。。
可我却无故被骂了一顿。。
人言可畏啊~~~~

话说人可是种非常有趣的生物啊~
因为人类可是世界上有着思想，脑筋发达的动物。。
那就是为什么我们人类被称为万物之王。。
因为我们有思考的能力。。
上天赐予我们这项能力，就是希望我们能够去思考。。
好让我们能够分辨出对与错。。


然而还有一样最最令我但到很有趣、很有兴趣想要研究的。。。
就是人心虚时的反应。。
最常发现一个人心虚的时候，就是在他对号入座的时候。。
为什么呢？？
原因很简单。。
因为自己本身又做过那样的东西，所以就会把自己设立在一个主角不是他的情况里。。
通常这种时候自己本身就会觉得说好像那个就是在讲着我这样子的一个想法。。
但是偏偏故事里的主角却是另有其人。。

如果只是单纯的想象而已就也还好。。
最怕就是那种搞不清楚状况还在泼妇骂街的。。
那种人可就糗死了咯。。
而且还会给人当笑话看。。
奉劝各位朋友可别做出这些蠢事来。。
什么事情都要先听、先看。。
可别因为一时别人所说的事情跟自己有几分相似就让自己进入了那个情境里。。
凡事都要先看清楚，故事到底是不是讲着自己。。
然后还要去打听一下，故事里的主角是谁。。
这样才能确保自己不会做出那些丢人现眼的事情来。。

当你真的把自己设定在无关己的故事里时。。
就会觉得人家肯定是在说着自己的不是。。
这是就是对你思考能力和修养的考验了。。
一个有思考能力的人必定会弄清楚故事里所说的是不是自己本身。。
因为一旦经过思考，谜底就会被揭开。。
也可以避免自己进入窘境。。
而一个有修养的人来说呢。。
就在一切都还没水落石出之前就指责传那故事的人。。
这么做就代表了白白浪费了上天给我们思考的脑袋。。

当然。。
当你在先发制人时。。
也许你会觉得你拥有了完全的优势。。
但事实却刚好相反的。。
你根本就处在最恶劣的劣势。。

差不多时候要出去喝茶了。。
今天就写到这边吧~
各位都晚安哦~~
v(^.^)v

important

hey ya~
it's been days since the last time i updated my blog..
so..
i'll be update it again today..


BUT..
before i start writting, let me ask u,all the guys out there:
Who is the most importatn people for you?? (family, friend or girlfriend?)


For me, my answer would be family, friend then just will be my girlfriend.
i know when i give this answer, the girls will surely stand up and complaint about this statement.
So, let me explain one by one ok?
The reason why i put the order like this is because family is the most important to me, if i don't hav a family, there is totally won't have me!
Being a family member is forever and irreplaceable.
we cannot simply go and replace our family member.
we had bounded to the family ever since we came to this world.
myab some girls will said, now your family is important than me right?? is it i am nothing to you?? why are you being selfish to me?? and many more stupid questions.
Let me make it straight guys, will you being together with a girl that don't like you respecting and caring for your family?or totally don't like your family?
For me, if i knew that the girl is like this, i would chop a big 'REJECTED" word on her forehead before i'll getting closer with her.
The reason is simple yet still got girls that dunno this..
the reason is, girls that don't know how to respect other people can be categorized as brainless and stupid. WHY??
look at yourself girl!! you are just a girlfriend, also nt yt to be his wife, what for you critic so much on his act of caring towards his family?? somemore you are just an outsider that mean nothing to him comparing you to his family that he grew up there, learn how to walk and talk and he's been staying there since he was born.
so, don't be such a dumbass ok?!


as for my second order, which is second most important people to me is my friend.
why i put friend first instead of girlfriend?
the reason is...
in my opinion, friendship is forever and won't easily break up except for some serious problems such as betrayal, going for same girl/guy and etc.
i believe that guys and girls nowadays like to make many friends, from primary school till high school then university and at the workplace.
why need to make so much friends??
the answer is easy!! because friends can come in handy when you are in trouble, they can lend a hand whenever you need their helps.
for some people, making friends and socialize with them are very important to them as they are involved in the industry that will require them to have a large network that will makes their work become easy.
Especially for men!!
they need to earn money to feed the whole family, so they need to build their network as big as possible to let their works operate smoothly.
But there are still some simple-minded girls that don't know how to twist their mindset.
They tend to control all the movement of their boyfriend/husband and tend to stick to their boyfriend/husband as frequently as possible, so that all the time is just for them only.
This is a STUPID ACT!!
Try to think about it, if you don't allow him to go and socialize with his fren,colleagues or even customer, where will him get the resourse or income to buy gifts, bags for you or going out on a date with you or even marry with you??
when you starting to control over his outing with his friends, means that you are trying to break up his friendship and network indirectly and slowly when his friend starting to notice that, the friendship is on its way to doom~!
and whenever this happen, he will be very suffering.
when he is suffering, you also will suffer.
So, what for making him and yourself suffer in the same time?!!




i think that is all i want to say for tonight..
if tomorrow i still remember, i will ask the question to the girls too~!
and for the statement i have gave above, is only an opinion of mine..
nt to say that i want to assault the girls, because the statement i gave can goes for guys as well...
So, just leave a comment and tell me what you think...


Happy debating~! haha

月圆之夜

现在已经是半夜了。。

但是我却一点睡意都没有。。

而且，还刚刚看完 'The Tooth Fairy'。。

原本打算看完就去睡的我，却不知道为什么突然之间很想上来这里些写东西。。

好吧~开始咯。。

话说在大约两个小时前，我把我厨房里一包大垃圾拿出去。。

当我走出门口时，我只觉得房子外面很凉爽。。

我很喜欢那个感觉。。

然后我也发现到今晚好像特别的亮。。

我就试着把头抬起望向天空。。

而我也找到今晚会那么亮的源头。。

天空上挂着的，是一轮皎洁，明亮的圆月。。

看起来是多么的清澈。。

顿时之间，我忘了我所有的烦恼。。

就像个小孩子那样，目不转睛地盯着它看。。

看着看着，我就在想：如果我现在是在一个充满洁白、细幼沙子的沙滩上。。

然后就那样的躺着望着天空。。

仿佛那月亮、星星就是一幅画那样。。

慢慢的欣赏。。

那应该会是很舒服、很放松吧~~

回到我房间后。。

脑子一直都是在想着屋外天空上的月亮。。

连看戏都变得不能专心了。。

俗语说得好：月圆人团圆。。

但是对身在异乡的我来说，并没感受到所谓的团圆。。

在这么一个美好的夜里。。

留下给我的，却是孤单、冷清、寂寞~~

在白天，我也许可以是个很能玩、很吵的家伙。。

但是一到了夜晚，尤其是像今晚那样的。。

这些孤单、寂寞的感觉回来的比平时还要强烈、还要凶猛。。

想要像平时那样努力的抑制它。。

到最后却也拿自己没辙。。

只好任由这些不好的感觉在我心里放肆。。

如果换作是平时的我。。

要抑制这些感觉简直就是易如反掌。。

但是肯定今晚不能。。

也许。。

一直以来，家人与朋友，甚至是女朋友我都会把全部的重心都放在他们身上。。

而不会保留一点给我自己。。

我这样，简直就像一艘在汪洋之中漂流，而又没有一个可以靠岸的码头的小帆船。。

一直一直都在努力地寻找着一个属于自己，真正可以让我靠岸的码头。。

一个可以让我安安稳稳停靠着的码头。。

只可惜，这个码头我却还没找到，所以只好继续的漂流。。

人终究都是群居的动物。。

没有一个人希望自己是孤零零一个人的。。

终于把我脑子里一部分的文字挤出来后。。

也许头脑也会轻松些吧~~

好让我可以睡个好觉。。

哈哈~

“单身并不可怕、不辛苦，只在于你如何去看待‘单身’这个词汇罢了。”  By 凯辉

单身的朋友就高喊单身万岁吧~

而那些想结束单身的朋友，祝你好运~！（我是其中的一个。。哈哈）

晚安~~

today..is the second day i being at kampar since i back from my hometown..
since yesterday..
i was quite busy with cleaning my room lar,go school to fill up forms lar..
and now..
what i can do is just sit at my room and wait for the result of appeal for termination to be release..
yup~!
i have been terminate by UTAR..and i am appealing from termination..
and this process is very lenghty..
so i have just need to wait..

i just back at kampar for two days and i already cannot tahan with the HOT HOT HOT weather..
it's very HOT..
just finish bathing, but will be sweating a little moment later..
and i have noticed that there are quite a lot of new shops opening at kampar..
and the most significant is McDonalds..
but i think i won't go there recently..
because it's packed with lots of people..
there is always long queue at there..
and if you want to have your lunch or dinner there,please be early ok?
because you will have to wait for a long time before you can buy your food and eat..

feeling quite lonely and quiet without my two housemate whose oways at downstair..
nw just left me..
nobody to talk to..
nobody to go dinner with...
banyak kesian~

i think that's all for today..
adios~! ^^

*小男孩*

自从前几天写了那篇东西之后，朋友们都说我是不是要出书了wor~哈哈。。
是可以考虑考虑下咯。。
可能在不久的未来我会自己出一本书也不一定。。
*（痴心妄想-ing）*
哈哈~~
刚好今天有灵感，就来分享一篇简短的故事吧~

话说从前有个小男孩，自他懂事以来，总会经常性的提出他心中的疑问。
充满好奇心的他，总是不放过任何发问的机会，也不去理会发问的对象是谁。
如果不给他一个答案，他就不会罢休，会一直继续的追问知道他问出个所以然。
他所问的问题，小至这个是什么东西，大至为什么会有这种动物等等。
总之有它哉就一定会听到为什么、为什么、为什么~
从他所得到的答案，也让他慢慢的长了见识。

当人家的小男孩还在玩着汽车仔的时候，他却学会了如何用LEGO砌成了一辆汽车。
凭着他的创意，他所砌出来的汽车可说是与众不同，属于他自己本身的小汽车。
而且他也会玩着爸爸妈妈所买给他的PUZZLE，慢慢的依着那一片片小小PUZZLE的形状还有图案，然后把它们组合起来变成一张美丽的图片。
从这些玩具里，小男孩学会了什么叫耐心。
因为要把这些玩具砌好、组合好，是必须要经过多次的失败后，才能成功的。

从小，小男孩都像个睡王子那样，总是在睡觉，而且睡眠时间超长的。
如果不是妈妈把他摇起身喂他喝牛奶的话，他也不会醒过来。
听说，小孩睡的多就越聪明。
小男孩的确有那么一点点小聪明。
很多事情他都会用他的小聪明来解决。
人说小孩都是幸福的。
因为他们吃饱就睡，睡饱就吃，这样就过了一天。

当小男孩慢慢的长大以后，他的求知欲望依然是非常强烈的。
只是，此时此刻的小男孩明白了有些事情是不可以跟某些人问的。
而且他也会开始去分辨它所得到的答案到底是对的，还是错的。
但是他强烈的求知欲望就没有像一般人所期望的那样为他带来好成绩。
因为他强烈的求知欲望并不是对着学校里所学习的课本与知识，而是外面整个环境，、整个世界的知识。
所以，自从他步入了中学以后，成绩就一年比一年差。
他小学时的成绩也并非名列前茅。
但他明白，他对于他周围环境有很多疑问，根本就停不下来。
即使上了大学也还是一样。
随着他成绩越来越不好，也直接令很多人大跌眼镜与失望。
随之而来的，当然就是些很不好的评语。
朋友、亲戚、家人。
这些人所说的每一句话，就如一颗颗大石头，都把他给压得喘不过气来。
而这些压力却未曾从他身上减少过，只是在继续的增加。
当然，他也不会去轻易的向别人诉说一切。
因为他知道他将说出的一切，即使说了出来，会相信的人是少之又少。
所以他宁愿把压力都收在心里，自己默默地承受。
因此，他学会了要坚强，不会在人前让眼泪夺眶而出，反而会自己一个人躲在暗角一边舔着伤口，一边让平日难得出现的眼泪流下。
因为他明白，流过了泪，心里会舒服些。

经过了二十多年的岁月，如今的小男孩已经长大成人了。
他已不会像以前那样，时时都充满笑容，一直缠着人问东问西。
如今的他，只会一味的沉默，给人一种孤僻的感觉。
每每都是一个人单独行动，就像好像在寻找着什么似的。
也许他是在寻找着一个属于他自己的归属。
或也许，他其实是在寻找着已经觅食多年的自己~~

问题 a.k.a PROBLEMS

hihi~
干嘛凌晨四点多了我还不睡，反而来这边写东西呢？？
其实我也不是很懂。。
只知道突然很有灵感、很有感觉要写些东西。。
哈哈。。

最近，我发现到身边的朋友都开始有了稍微的变化。。
性格上、谈吐上、行为上，甚至是待人之道上。。
都起了变化。。
原因有几个。。
但是最主要的，来来去去也不过是女人还有钱。。

首先，就说说女人这一回事了。。
话说，男人们都是爱面子的单细胞动物。。
只要你把面子做给他，你要他帮你做什么，他都会心甘情愿、毫无反抗的完成。。
这。。简直就是易如反掌嘛。。
但是。。
偏偏就有这一票女生朋友，不知道要说她们不够聪明，还是不够细心。。
因为她们怎么搞，都搞不清这一样能轻易搞定男生的东西。。
弄得自己天天在那跟男友/老公吵吵闹闹的，辛苦到死。。
聪明、细心的女生就不同。。
她们懂得在外时，把面子做给男生，让男生周遭的朋友羡慕。。
这样，当她们有什么要求时，男生都一定会义不容辞的帮她们完成。。。
就举个例子吧：
试问，当妳跟妳男友和他的一斑朋友出门在外时，妳会当着众人的面拉、打、捏、摆黑脸给你男友看吗？？
答案有两个：
--会。。那就是说，妳就是要在众人面前给他难堪。。试想想，这样一来，多没面子啊？？！如此一来，他就会心又不甘，而且这口气也确实很难咽得下去。结果呢？当时就会慢慢的累积起那些不满、不甘的情绪，等到爆发的那一天，分分钟连男朋友都会没了，到时再来后悔就来不及咯~~
--不会。。这么一来，代表妳尊重妳的男友，而且也尊重他的朋友，还会让他觉得他很有面子。得到的结果，当然就是男友的千依百顺、疼爱有加。简直就是双赢的局面嘛。
当妳在外把面子做足了，回到家，任妳如何处置都没问题。

再来就是钱的问题了。。
钱的问题由两种。。
一种是花在自己的身上，另一种是花在女友身上的。。
就从花在女友身上的问题说起吧~
无可否认，两个人在一起，男生免不了花费会重了些，但是这可要见仁见智噜~
聪明的女人会把男友的钱管理的井井有条，但是并非指所有的钱都归妳所管哦~
聪明细心的女人会想着怎么替男友省钱，比如说有时候的消费不需要全部都是男生来负责，不是说对方是妳男友妳就要把付钱这回事全都交给男友来负责。有的时候，妳也可以主动帮他分担一些些。就如前面所说的，男生是爱面子的，如果妳这样做，他肯定会感动死哦~给些例子好了，就比如说去看戏好了，男生买了戏票，付了戏票钱，女生可以去买饮料，而买饮料的钱是女生自己的，这样就能帮男生分担掉少许的费用了嘛~从而让男生可以省下这些钱，把钱存起来。又或者有的时候出去吃东西时，如果吃的是比较贵的餐厅，两个人可以采取AA制，评分帐单。当吃比较普通、平价的食物时就让男生付钱，这样也能帮男生省点钱。
我相信，这世界是现实的。。
但是省归省哦~而不是叫妳帮男生省到连跟他朋友一起聚会都不让他去哦~要知道，男生有着良好的人际关系可会帮助到将来他事业的发展的哦~当你不让他跟朋友们聚会时，也代表说朋友们也会渐渐的怕麻烦而疏远他。如果将来他需要帮助时又找不到朋友的帮忙，而妳也不能怨那些朋友不好，反而应该好好检讨自己断送自己男友的前途咯~
我也相信，现在15、16、17岁的小女生已经开始很懂享受，也很懂要找个可以让她们吃好穿好的男友。这也不是什么问题，毕竟她们也还不懂大人们的辛苦之处啊~但是一旦妳踏入了18岁，你已经可以算是半个成年人了，在某些地方可能已经是成年人了。这代表什么？就是你的思想也必然的，需要成熟点了，应该学会考虑更多的东西。妳也应该开始学会去体恤男生赚钱的辛苦，而不是只去考虑他赚的钱多不多罢了。譬如说，一个女生因为学习的关系而必须住宿舍，而男友为了方便就让女生住了他离学校不远的家。但是一个人住的家，用电量竟然那么惊人，需要用到接近RM50。这数目分分钟出现在有些家庭的电单里。然后每当跟男友出街时，就买这买那，自己要用的琐碎物品也要男友来付钱，贵重的化妆品之类的也要求男友付钱买了。而且，从来没有那个意思说要付钱。这是干什么嘛？！他只是妳男友，还不是妳老公哦~18、19岁了还会有如此幼稚的想法，不觉得有点太不合年纪了吗？

所谓的花在自己身上的问题就是指男生们如何运用自己的钱财。最好的，当然就是别赌、别烟、别嫖咯~~然而还有一样就是。。。信用卡！！这张可害人不浅咯~~我不是反对说有信用卡不好，只是你要确定你有那个能力来偿还用卡刷的费用，那就没什么大不了。最怕就是自己明明就没个月工钱都是差不多刚好够用而已，就跑去申请了4、5张信用卡，而且每张都几乎刷到要爆了，才来说没多余的钱去还那些费用。最终落得破产的结局。。这不是更难看吗？？钱呢，够花就好，别去想用什么未来钱的。这样只会辛苦了自己罢了。。

女生们，试想想吧~如果真的有天世界颠倒，男女之间的角色对换，妳希望得到向上面所说的待遇吗？

问题一个一个在身边的朋友里出现，也让我在走入一段感情之前，多了一些些考虑与畏惧，也让我很想欢呼说单身万岁。但是随之而来的，当然就是孤单、寂寞咯~虽说单身有如在天空里翱翔的小鸟，但是每到冰冷的夜晚，却又异常的渴望有个人陪陪自己，谁在身边，甚至是给自己一个紧紧地拥抱。这。。就是所谓的单身的代价~~只要你肯接受这个代价，那么，你就可以对着全世界高喊；“单身万岁，万万岁！！”

for the past few years..
family and relative tend to ask me: eh, you got girlfriend or not?
friends tend to ask me: eh, you not have lots of girl's friends meh? why didn't see you 'pak tor' eh?
and frankly speaking..
i'm quite tired to keep answering the question..
to family and relative,my answer would be: no wor.
to friends,my answer would be: yup..i know quite a number of girl's friends, but really just being friend with them only..
but..
the reaction of family and friends are the same..
all also give the reaction: huh?! really or not??! you don't trick us lar~~
and hereby telling all of you..i am telling the truth!!


but come to think of it..
somesays it's better to find a girlfriend when you still studying in university or college..
y said so~their explanation is that it's harder to find a girlfriend when you start working..
no free time,OT,work that has less amount of girls,tired of going out and etc...
i think that they will says like that is based on these factors..
in my opinion,this is quite true actually..
after graduate,you will need to start working..
and you tend to strive to get a better salary or some are luckier,straight away open up a business and be the boss of his/her own.
by that time,your time would be used at your work..
and mayb you also won't have the time for your family as well..
if like that,how are you going to have the chance of knowing any girl and be in a relationship?


like what i said to my buddies recently..
"I think it's good that i'm single,because you all can find me anytime you all wanted and i won't reject the offer to go out with you all..If i'm in a relationship/have a girlfriend,you all still think that i'll still go out with you all like i used to be?? it's a bit impossible ok.."
then my buddies debate with me and said: that's mean you will be 重色轻友 la?
then let me ask you all a question..
"did you all dare to say that you all didn't do so?"
then why whenever i want to ask you all come out,you all keep giving me the excuses of :
1. girlfriend don't want to give me go out
2. girlfriend come back, need to accompany her
3. girlfriend said want go here and there, need to go with her
and yet,i am an understanding man..
so i didn't care so much about this..
but when it comes to you all,please keep this in mind..
I'm also man like you all..
so..don't tend to say that i am 重色轻友..
cz i believe in 'don't comment on others behaviours that you have'


i assumed that i am the kind of guy that will think too far beyond..
and i'll think of a lot of thing  and assumption before i started / on the way tackling girl..
i will go and think of :
1. is it i have the basic requirment to go for a girl
2. is it i able to take care of the girl
3. how am i going to care for her and love her
4. we will have future or not and many more..
i started to have the style of thinking like this after few past failures in a relationship
and i tend to be more self-protective to prevent from getting hurt again and again..
and i started to become picky..just like what i've read from an article:
"good guy usually hard to find a girlfriend,because they will think of the consequences and more tend to be responsible than the bad guy..and for the bad guy,they just think of want to play with the girl only and never ever going to be serious in a relationship,therefore,any girls that close to their taste they will just go for it and won't like the good guy that will think seriously before doing it"
and i just can say that i am neither good guy or bad guy..because i am not so good guy yet i am not so bad to be a bad guy..


deep deep inside my heart..
the desire of being in a relationship are so so so strong.
but yet, there are lots of question that i need to asnwer first before i started..
that's why it's a bit hard for me to go into a relationship than other guys..
i do hope that these questions and problem can be solved after sometimes..
just don't know when...




thx for bearing with me for so long..
because this post is kind of long actually..
but anyway,all i have to say is already written out..
so i think it's time to off to bed and sleep already..
then, i think that's all..
~goodbye and good night~ 

~PEACE ya~

100 post! finally finish!!

hey hey all.~~
yup..
no doubt bout it...
tis is my 100th post of blog...
n i guess..
it's just gonna be a short post only...

finally i finish all of my papers...
it's quite hard...
makes me feel dizzy n headache bout it..
bt thank god..
it finally comes to an end...
and this means holiday for me now..
yet..i din go anywer 2day...
nw i m just sittieng in front of the computer table..
n type this 100th post..
so frens...
DATE ME OUT!!
bt actually i m kinda tired...
cz last nite din manage to sleep due to some creature keep making noices....
n i'm a zombie look-a-like nw...
blur n numb to everything...

n i wanna stress on 1 thing here...
for those motherfucka whose wanna scold ppl at the blog..
pls make sure that ur balls are with u...
dun simply use other ppl name to scold the blog's owner after ppl scold u...

*CALVIN the coward*

imma giv u the 1st and the last advice from me...
dun simply hav the idea to mess with me...
u totally dunno wat kind of mad guy u r messing with..
n imma gonna tell u 3 things:

1st, i dun play with childish kidult like u..

2nd, i dun play with guy tat has no balls like u...

3rd, i believe in karma..n ppl whose done bad thing will hav his payback in the future..JUST LIKE YOU!

beach party~!

yesterday, i went for the beach party at Lost World of Tambun, Ipoh.

i go with my uni frens...

the beach party was awesome~!!

jz imagine..

Bikinies~~!! Beers~~!! n the fantastic music~~!!

n the most important is the lengzais lengluis there...

hahaha..

we depart from kampar around 5 something...

then went to mcd to take dinner 1st..

after tat wait for another car to joib us...

then..straight off to Lost World..

when we reach Lost World, the time is just 7.30pm onli..

still gt half an hour more b4 we can enter into the party..

so we queue up n wait...

when it's time to go in..

everyone was so damn high~!!

n when we saw the bikini gurls coming out to welcome all the ppl..

high till the max~!!

haha...

then went in there n take the place which was near to the stage n the beach..

after tat..

a WAR is goin on...

the war of throwing ppl into the water...

all of us also get threw off into the water...

nobody can escape tis destiny..

hahaha

after tat just play water n dance in there..

bt when it's time for DJ Ken to spin, everybody started to get wild..

n dance dance dance~!

haha...

jz enjoy the music...

we went bak around 12 something or 1am..

n went for food at mcd near the Lost World..

after tat change place to East Area of ipoh to find some midnite snacks..

after fooling around,we went bak home..

reach home around 4 something...

it was a great nite for me..

cz tis is the 1st time i participate in tis kind of event..

1 word to say..

F U N ~!!!!!!!!!!!

n here is some pic..

 

拔牙记-part 2

今天早上去会上次的牙医诊所拆线。。

然后再把多一只牙齿拔掉。。

但是这次的医生却是个女医生。。

她弄得我很痛苦。。

快给他气死了。。

一直在那边跟我洗脑。。

叫我去挑牙根。。

我都说好要拔了嘛。。

你就拔就好了嘛。。

下面有两张我牙齿的照片。。

简直就是‘巨齿’~！！

我打算把它收起来。。。

是不是很大一只呢？？和我中指的第一节一样长耶~~~

重点是。。

伤口也很大一下。。。

真不懂以后要怎么吃东西。。。

唉~~~~~~~~~~！！

拔牙记-part 1

终于。。
我把我的大蛀牙给拔去了。。
而且还在伤口缝了几针。。
五天后就要去拆线了。。
那时候还会再拔多另外一只。。
这次我可瘦了。。
一天三餐都吃粥。。
好健康下咯。。。
哈哈。。。

但是我不懂是不是拔牙的关系。。
弄得我很不舒服。。
唉~
希望明天一觉睡醒就会好了。。

hmm...
最近我都好像很迟睡。。
我也不懂为什么会这样。。
只知道说到了晚上就怎么睡都睡不着。。
只好上上网、看看书咯。。
但是看的却不是跟我的学业有关的书。。
而是所谓的面子书。。
看来我是时候加把劲了噜~

刚才。。
我housemate看完球一回到来。。
就问我说：做莫你那么寂寞的？？
我就只能傻了一下。。
难道。。。
我散发出一种令人觉得我很寂寞的感觉吗？？
是不是一看就可以断定我是孤独老人的那种呢？
哈哈。。。

话说。。
我觉得我给人的感觉总是不怎么友善。。
该怎么说呢？
就可能每次一到新的环境就会选择默默地观察周围。。
然后都不怎么参人。。
就仿佛是躲在墙角的幽灵般。。
是蛮恐怖的啦。。
而且也因为我这样。。
造成我看起来好像很骄傲、‘懒习’。。
但是如果一开始熟了应该也不会怎样了吧？

哈哈。。
又是到了睡觉的时候噜~
各位早安~
祝你们有个快乐的早晨。。
晚安~~ ^^

imma gonna bak hometown tis week..

after my presentation tis wednesday..

n imma calling off for a holiday by myself...

n tis time..

imma put lots of efforts on my study..

gotta study at home during day time..

n partying/outing hard when the nite come~

hahaha..

there's oways a saying,"study hard,play hard~!!"

n i'm looking forward to the date with a secondary lenglui schoolmate of my..

~Ms. Collie Law~

hahaha...

gonna to watch a movie with her n oso having mcd with her on 31st of August..

YeeaaH~

Currently..

my life is okie..

n i m quite happy..

bt a little bit lonely...

n tat's jz ok for me..

cz i'm nt so picky~!

See ya~

nitez....

haircut haircut~

hmm..
i m thinking..
is time for me to change new hair style d?
cz i plan to go bald tis time...
cut all the 'trouble' away..
i've also plan to grow goatee beard to go with my bald hair style..
bt,my beard jz cant grow long enuf..
tat's y i still considering wan to go bald or nt..

i've been telling ppl tat i m goin to go bald..
n almost all of them giv me the reaction like: "HuH?! WTF! Y u wanna go bald o??!! WAT did u thing until wanna go bald o??!!!"
hahaha...
it's funny to c their reaction..
bt then,i jz reply all of them:"aiya..hair onli mar...can grow bak eh~~~"
hehe...

soon..
notyjimjim will change to botak jimjim..
hahahahaha...

i cant feel my body..
seems like it's bcome hollow already..
jz left an empty shell...
it's is quite suffer..
i wanna get over tis as fast as possible...
i hav no time for tis..

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK TO THIS DAMN THING~!!

i dunno y..
y i recently bcome so so so unmotivated...
feel so powerless, no energy at all...

i nid motivation...
i nid power...
i nid to b strong...
n invulnerable~!

it's over....
she already have bf lu...
a bit sad to hear tis news..
bt i also feel quite relief..
bcz nid no more concern tat y she din peduli me..
or worry about will she accept me or nt..

just like my fren said..
just move on..
sure hav another one waiting in front...
jz cheer n move on...
hahaha...

hmm...
gotta improve myself..
gotta improve to impress...
^^

thursday, august 05, 2010, 0232am

today is my housemate, mr. leong wee hao's big day..

Happy Birthday to Him..

haha..

jz nw his girlfren come to our house to giv him a suprise with a handmade cheese cake made by her..

n she gt find one of my housemate zheng shun to plan for this suprise..

n i help them to take some sweet sweet photos jz nw..

when i were seeing them..

a thought came across my mind..

did i ever have tis kinds of suprise before..

n i looked bak into my memories..

n i found out tat i had never ever having tis kinds of suprise or celebration before..

with the loved one..

looking bak into my past 3 relationship..

i nvr receive gift or celebration from my ex-girlfren..

i think is because all of my relationship start after my birthday and end before my birthday..

so, i shud hav expected that there is no celebration with loved one for me..

jz goin out with fren jz like usual..

ntg much special..

i truely wish tat i can celebrate my birthday with my loved one..

bt everytime jz onli will let me down..

i hope n i wish for many years..

every year, my third birthday wish is the same..

wishing for the chances to celebrate special moments with loved one..

bt it nvr ccome true after so many years..

stil the same old condition..

and tis year my birthday wish is still the same..

But...

i think i jz got rejected..

wat to do..except keep wishing the same wish and hope that it will come true one day in the future..

Haizzzz~~~

~泪~

流泪原来也是一种解压、放松的方法。。

每当那泪水，从双颊缓缓地落下。。

烦恼也好像随着泪滴一起。。

受着地心引力拉车的往下掉。。。

试着回想。。

我。。到底多久没流过泪了？？

我想。。大概整一年多了吧。。。

但是，今天晚上的我。。

却流泪了~~

这一年多来。。

堆积在心里深处的烦恼、不安、负面的情绪一支都把我压得有点喘不过气来。。

而我，也尽量压抑着这些情绪，不让它们出来。。

但是。。今晚的我。。却流下了这一年多以来没流过的泪。。

那些情绪、烦恼与不安得以得到暂时的解脱。。

对。。只是暂时，而不是永远的解脱。。

我会这么说是有原因的。。

别看我平常时疯疯癫癫。。

很喜欢搞东搞西。。

而身旁的人，也都随着我笑了起来。。

但是永远在我内心的深处。。

烦恼与不安还有负面的情绪还是会一直重复的来回旋绕着。。

但是我却不会把这些情绪感染了我身旁的人。。

所以我宁愿选择自己一个人躲在一边舔伤口。。

不是说我不想和别人分享。。

只是我也懒得去诉说所有的一切。。

如果真的被问到，也已玩笑或稍微带过。。

绝不深入谈起。。

这也是为什么很多人都以为我好像没什么烦恼。。

一副怡然自得的脸。。

这也是没办法的嘛。。

表露在外的就是一副疯癫、吊儿郎当、得过且过样子啊。。

不管怎么说。。

现在泪也流过了。。

只能叫自己再坚强点。。

负面的情绪也得到轻微的舒解了。。

跌倒了。。就爬起来罢了嘛。。

呼一呼。。伤口不痛了。。

继续向前走咯~

这就是我。。

有名的大傻瓜~！

bak home

i m at my bm room rite nw..
n i feel extremely tired after all the hard work tis week..
i think i gonna take a gud rest during tis few days..
so i choose to bak home tis week..
to relax..mentally n physically..

tiring me

fuh~
haven sleep for about more than 40 hours d..
because of keep rushing my assignments...
i think is very tired for me...
and the best part is i rush my assignments till i totally forget about i m having a quiz yesterday morning...
hw careless i m!
n hw stupid i m too!!!
n i m having a test n presentation tis thursday too..
i reali no idea hw i m goin to prepare for my test...
2day still gt 2 assignments to be discuss and finalise..
haizz...
torturing my ownself..

STUPID JIM~!!

失败了吗？

我已经失败了吗？
你已经拒绝我了吗？
我们还会是朋友吗？
还是该怎样呢？
可以告诉我吗？

心烦

近来。。
突然发觉到，我与她，好像有点渐行渐远的感觉。。
电话、msn开始都不那么常联络了。。
而且。。
也没什么会回复我。。
是我吓着了她吗？？
还是我已经没机会了？
或者是我和她根本就没缘、不可能？？

我也不是很懂。。
我只知道。。
我的心现在真的很烦。。

17 july 2010, 3.01am

发现到我的思想其实还蛮幼稚的。。
尽然可以贸贸然就对一个自己也没相处过的女生说我想追你。。
开什么玩笑？！
我真的真的还是太幼稚了。。
但是想想下又觉得，遇到自己喜欢的人，不是应该争取的吗？？
我真的搞不懂。。
该怎么做才是成熟、对的方法。。

认真想了又想。。
我现在这个阶段，真的能够允许我去进入一段感情吗？
我真的能够给到她所需要的东西吗？？
我真的能够让她幸福吗？？
还是只会让她辛苦而已？？！

女孩在短时间内就即将从大学毕业出社会工作了。。
当她出社会的同时，我还在念着大学。。
自然而然她接触的人、事、物肯定会比我多。。
当然也会接触到更好的男生。。
如果在那个时候，我根本没那个自信跟把握可以得到她的心。。
毕竟思想也会有点差别。。
考虑跟烦恼的事情也不一样。。。
我该怎么做呢？？

思考了种种可能性。。
也把自己陷入了彷徨之中。。
该怎么做应该也只好见一步，走一步了吧？

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在这里跟大家分享下一首还不错的歌。。
是我表哥和他的乐团创作的歌。。
这首歌让我听了很有感觉。。
因为我最近也在做这件事。。
就是在晚上都会想想你。。



歌名：思恋@1.30am
电话 开始不听 信息 你没回应
实际改变了爱情 你的心已坚决要离去

思念 藏进日记
快乐的片段像个DVD 重复播在脑海里

Chorus:
我想你 想到无法自己 想到天天在哭泣 想到没有天与地
我爱你 爱到不能分离 爱到世界只剩下一个你 我不能不爱你

静静 的房间里 少了 你的呼吸
原来我们的爱情 已经不能让你着迷

此刻 我还不相信
我们的爱情隐藏着一段的距离 收藏着是你的秘密

Rap:
别哭泣 至少有美好回忆
别伤心 爱她就得继续爱到底
把打击化为冲击继续提升自己
放开曾经 让爱继续呼吸

别继续 关闭在失恋的监牢里
让自己 打开心门寻找新恋情
找回自己原本该有的魅力
打开日记 记载新的恋情

黄丽玲(A-Lin) - 完整的浪漫

你安排一场意外
送我一枚指环
试着掩饰不安
却被我看出来

抚摸你手心的汗
我问你为何存在
你说为了今天起
你是我的另一半

假设爱 就像玫瑰 勇敢而自然
假设爱 就像钻石 坚强而浪漫
爱你是信念 或者是纪念
我都想看它实现

我是only woman
你是only man
用生命依赖 被幸福宠爱
完整了 所有浪漫

我是only woman
你是only man
不管苦与甘 不管好与坏
我们都 要凭着 爱 承担

黄丽玲 - 完整的浪漫
作词：黄文萱  作曲：小宇
歌词编辑:李泽昊       QQ:393235800

我在阳光里醒来
看你熟睡像小孩
永恒就这样简单
只需要一个片段

假设爱 就像玫瑰 勇敢而自然
假设爱 就像钻石 坚强而浪漫
爱你是信念 或着是纪念
我都想看它实现

我是only woman
你是only man
用生命依赖 被幸福宠爱
完整了 所有浪漫

我是only woman
你是only man
不管苦与甘 不管好与坏
我们都 要凭着 爱 承担

因为 是你  不必练习 我的答案
一直等的 是你 何必练习 承诺交换
只有一句 我愿意 这一句 我愿意
就一句 我愿意 我愿意去 爱~爱~爱

我是only woman
你是only man
用生命依赖 被幸福宠爱
完整了 所有浪漫

我是only woman
你是only man
不管苦与甘 不管好与坏
我们都 要凭着 爱 承担

12:45 july 2010

i m so glad last nite..
cz i saw her wearing the shoes tat i gave her to her outing  with her frens..
haha..
i m happy tat she likes tat shoes..
i think...
it's a bright chances for me ya?
still nid to put on some effort..
to get closer with her..
n to make her mine...
her sweet voice..
her sweet smile..
jz get me deeply addicted..
hahaha...

tat day i gt hint her tat i gt the intention to wan her as my other half...
bt she jz says i dunno lu~
then i jz said..i'll let u noe someday..
then she still saying i dunno i dunno lu...
hmm..
i m curious about tis 'dunno'..
izzit a 'NO' or a 'YES' ??
or is between 'NO' and 'YES' ??

i think i shud make myself free faster..
n go n meet her..
after meet her jz c hw it goes..

getting my finger cross...
hoping tis time i'll get the rite girl...

v(^.^)v

haha...
finally 2day receive the present in time...
n fast fast wrap the present n get to skynet n send it...
i think 2moro can receive it already...

nah~
i din break my promise lu..
i said i will try my best to send it on time..
nw i reali send it on time le..
hehe...

hope tat there wil b a smile on ur face after receive ur present 2moro~~ ^^

~.~

it's early in the morning n i jz been sleep for 3 or 4 hours onli..
bcz last nite went to watch football with housemate..
spain have a gud play last nite...
PUYOL~
haha...

haizzz...
i feel sorry for someone lor...
till nw still haven get her birthday present..
adui...
malaysia eh pos service reali is...
gao lat!!
if later still cant get it..
i'll go straight away to pos office n ask d..
stupid..
pos laju pun nid take more than 1 days to reach...
if wan take so long de time,y still write sure will reach the next day wor...
tipu orang eh!!

devil..
sry har...
ur present i'll make sure it reaches u no matter hw..
jz wait for it k??
will make sure it reali reaches u b4 saturday morning...
paiseh paiseh~

her birthday is getting closer n closer..
1 more week to go..
hope tat my present n card can b send to her in time..
n although i cant b at her side n help her celebrate..
bt i jz hope tat she will understand n touch for the gift n card tat i will be giving to her..
Bless me...

later 2pm is my Retail Management midterm..
n i had study since friday..
jz 4 chapters..
bt till nw i stil dun get a thing of wat the notes is talking bout..
mayb wil go n hav some sleep n continue study after i wake up..

Nitez~~~~!

it's almost 5am in the early morning..
n i m still staying awake...
din hav a bit sleepiness..

jz nw went to to get some fresh air with housemates..
riding motor in the middle of the nite..
the cool air reali makes my mind fresh..
n the small n cold rain drops help me to let my head clearer...
went to mamak n eat something..
then hav a little talk with housemates..
then went bak to hostel d..
n then air m rain is still the same..

come to think of it..
i reali starting to act strange recently..
everytime i open my msn..
i'll so hope tat u r on9 at the same time too...
bt when i glance thru the contact list..
n u r nt on9..
i'll feel dissapointed..
n a little bit down..
then i'll feel like wanna talk with u n hear ur voice everyday..
n so wanna c u...
i jz no idea wat is happening to me..
mayb i m having a sickness..

LOVE SICK~~

LOL

damn!
wat's goin on with me?
everyday waiting to call her?
thinking bout her?
we r nt even met yet...
OMG~

can i jz lay bak a little bit n jz observe her reaction?
bt i m poor in observation..
TO GO OR NOT TO GO~~??!!
rejected??
accepted??
nobody noes~

Puffylab

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cz can earn some pocket money~ hahaha


n they oso organize a blog event..
which is u write a post about puffylab on ur blog..
n u will stand a chance to win a VIP account n 5% discount on all Puffylab items for 6 months!!!
so guys n girls...
join this event fast!!
cz it's jz left 4 days onli....
come n join it!!

recently..
quite happy cz starting to get closer with a gurl...
with a cute cute n pretty gurl..
a gurl with a kind heart..
n is a understanding gurl...

its been the 2nd nite talk on the phone with her b4 goin sleep..
listen to her voice..
listen to her laugh..
i'll oso will feel happy...
n i'll sleep sweeter...

her birthday is jz around the corner..
n i'm making her a birthday card...
n oso go n learn to play birthday song in guitar...
last bt nt least..
a suprise present..
hahaha...
i gotta work on the card n try to finish it earlier...
so tat can send to her earlier...

i think i already found the rite person..
n i really wish my wish will come true..
i really do hope so....

p/s : if YOU eventually saw tis post..dun doubt it...i m definitely talking about YOU~~~ ^^

You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see

You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you
through rain and shiny days

I'll love you Till I die
Deep as sea Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go

Need you all my life
You're my hope You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise
You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see

You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you
through rain and shiny days

I'll love you Till I die
Deep as sea Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go

Need you all my life
You're my hope You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise
I'll love you Till I die
Deep as sea Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go

Need you all my life
You're my hope You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life be our love paradise

hi y'all...
is another sleepless nite for me..
so imma gonna blog at here..
haha..

its been 3 weeks d since the skul reopen..
n my study life was like so far so gud...
met some new ppl...
expanding my social network by a little bit more..
bt 1 thing tat i noe is...
most of my subject r quite hard 2 understand tis time...
cz by looking thru the lecture note..
i cant really understand wat the note is all about...
n sometimes it jz pissed me off~!
bt it's ok...
i'll try to handle it as well as i can...
i think the following few weeks i'm gonna be super busy with assignments n mid-term...
adui~~~adui~~!!

tis weekend..
i think many ppl r goin bak their hometown to celebrate father's day...
bt i cant go bak..
cz i jz bak there last week..
so..
there jz nth tat i can do...
haha...
although i cant go bak...
bt i really like to go bak..
cz i wanna go bak n eat my grandma bak zhang~!
the bak zhang with the special ingredient for me~!!
bt nw talk so much oso useless..
C A N N O T   E A T ! !

jz nw..
dunno y suddenly goin emo..
jz feel like jz wanna be alone...
dun wanna talk to anyone...
i oso dunno wat happen...
i think i hav more than 1 ME inside my mind...
i think i m mentally disoder d~
hahaha...

gonna bed nw...
nitez~

World Cup 2010

haha~
theWorld Cup has come again after 4 years ago..
jz finish watching the 1st match an hour ago..
so ngam let me guess rite the score..
n win myself a cup of McFlurry..
haha..
i nid to thx to Joan lu~
^^

i m nw waiting for the 2nd match nw...
Uruguay vs France..
so come on guys..
guess which team will win later??
Uruguay??
or France??
i hav ade play a bet with fren for tis match..
haha...


hope uruguay can win lu~
haha

haizz...
school has been reopen for 2 weeks d..
n i m glad tat i m nw proceed to year 2 semester 1...
bt 1 thing tat i dun like nw is...
THE CLASSES I M TAKING R FREAKING STUPID!!

y??
its bcz the stupid UTAR doin the stupid things la..
oways change tis change tat..
nw the change make me goin to classes tat din hav student same course with me...
F*CK~!!
its jz simply terrible u noe...

tats mean next semester i m goin to face the same problem again n again n again n again..................n again...
tat jz so fucked up...

bt luckily i manage to get the carpark sticker..
if nt sure die walking under the hot hot sun...
hahaha....

neh~
care wat!
off 2 bed nw...
nitez y'all~!!

2moro 2moro~

2moro..
i'll be goin to back to hostel d lor..
Kampar,Here I Come Again~!!
haha...

checked my result yesterday..
i already passed my 3 repeated subject...
then i can move on to Year 2..
reali glad tat i can make it...
bt result still count bad lu~
nid to improve when in Year 2...
wanna boost up my cgpa..

nt yt packed my things yet..
wan go packed nw..
gonna miss my house,my room,my bed....

1 week left

i've been home for 10 days d...
nw...
jz left 1 weeks left for me...
cz i will nid to go bak to kampar d..
haha..

for nw..
i rather stay at kampar than come bak here...
wanna noe y?
its bcz when bak here pun nth to do...
very sien oso..
frens r busy with their things..
so y nt i jz stay there...
n i can hang out with my housemates n frens there...
rather than being totally alone n bored here with nothing to do....

nid to noe more single frens d...
hahaha

hi ya~
nw is 5.30am early in the morning...
n yet..
i haven sleep..
jz get ready to sleep after typing tis article...
haha....
its been the dunno hw many continous nite sleep so late d..
pimples already come out to c people lu...
hmmm..
wat i gonna said?
oh ya...
its been the fourth days of my sem break d...
n i m starting to felt so boring d...
cz jz sit at home n do nth except on9 on9 n on9...
so so SOooooooooooooooooo BORING!

haha...
few days had passed after i cut my hair...
n receive many comment from frens,family n others..
some say tat i looks dumb...
some say tat i looks bad...
hahaha...
bt no matter hw..
i dun giv a damn...
cz sometimes changes will let ppl suprise n feel fresh...
so its ok...
hahahaha...

m i so hard to talk with??
or m i hard to talk with others people???
i think the answers can be YES and NO...
cz the 1st image i giv people most probrably is i m very hard to get closed with when i dun smile..
n another reason is i m quite shy n dunno hw to starts a conversation with some new people...
so i think tis hard for me to make more new frens..
sometimes i will b too humble n tat straight away neglect the thought of talking to others..
i dunno y i cant jz be more normal a bit...
feeling so fucked up on myself....
no idea....

i think i gonna go n take a nap d..
if nt later mum scold me for wake up late again...
so..
gud nitez n sweet dreams ya~ ^^

nw is 4.25am...
jz finish my "sis" assignment...
n dun feel like sleeping...
i oso dunno why...

come 2 think of it..
i think tat my desire to hav a partner r going crazier recently....
the desire r so strong tat sampai i cannot tahan d...
mayb..
1 n a half year is too long for me....
single for 1 n a half year d...
most of time i will doubt my ownself..
n asking some stupid question such as:
-m i really so unattractive to gurls?
-izzit me treated gurl nt gud enuf?
-izzit the gurl think tat i m too hard to be closed with?
-izzit i din hav the skills n ability to get the gurl attention?
and many more question jz keep circling throughtout my head....
bt in the end..no certain answer can be get..
tat's y i m getting more confused n confused....
y other guy can,but i cant?
wer did i do wrong??
bt there ain't nobody gonna let me noe...
hw pathetic i m~

well...
i think there is totally no gain when we din get any pain..

haha...
FINALLY~~~!!!
the exam is over...
n here comes the HOLIDAY!!
syok syok syok...
bt i think after the result come out more syok....
>.<

n guess wat..
i went for a haircut straight after my last paper without considering the weather is rainy!
haha...
beh tahan d..
wan a relief~ ^^

n here is my new hairstyle lo....

nice? or noob?? haha
here is another pic....

                                                        ki siao-ing de me~ ^^

then after having a haircut, i straight away take the bus n head home to enjoy my sem break lu~
HappY HolidaY ~!!!

its 5.40am in the morning...
n i haven sleep yet..
haha...
wat to do..
cant sleep ma...
haizz...
later my face's condition sure become worst again...

i already sit for my 2 subjects' exam...
so nw jz left 1 more onli..
is at next wednesday,2pm...
nw jz hope tat i can understand the format n the concept in this few days...
mz work hard for it...
then after that can go bak hometown d...

come to think of it..
it the end of another sem d...
from the end of tis month start, i m already stay n study at kampar for 2 years...
bt still hav 2 years for me to graduate due to my stupidness,lazyness n etc..
reali dunno i manage to graduate successfully or nt...
jz wait n c ba...

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hmmmm..
recently,i feel tat my desire for getting a partner is getting stronger n stronger..
i oso dunno why...
i jz being single for almost 1 n half year onli ma...
nt so long pun...
bt when i saw some sweet sweet couples..
strange thoughts will appear on my mind..
i oso dunno why...
haha...
according to both of my 'da jiejie' judy n joanne..
they think i m a gud guy...
bt why i din hav a partner,nobody noe...
they oso very cute 1..
oways ask me fast fast go find a gf 1...
haha....
bt i realli thx n appreciate them a lot la...
i think they r the 1 tat noe the most the other side of me than other ppl...
cz i feel really comfortable when talking with them or stay around them....
hope our frenship nvr end...

the final exam is jz around the corner..
try to get my study mood in this few days..
i wan pass tis sem too..

yesterday..
i went to c my adviser..
n after she noe about my current result..
she giv me a suggestion..
which is go n register as a new student to clear off my bad bad bad result...
n work harder to get as gud result as possible..
wat she said is quite rite..
bt think of it..
i din hav such $$$ to go n register as a new student again ar...
somemore nid to settle the ptptn loan to apply again...
bt if i continue,i nid to make sure tat i'll get 4 flat for every semester go get 2nd lower or  upper class certificate..
fuh~~
wat to do?? wat to do????