for the past few years..
family and relative tend to ask me: eh, you got girlfriend or not?
friends tend to ask me: eh, you not have lots of girl's friends meh? why didn't see you 'pak tor' eh?
and frankly speaking..
i'm quite tired to keep answering the question..
to family and relative,my answer would be: no wor.
to friends,my answer would be: yup..i know quite a number of girl's friends, but really just being friend with them only..
but..
the reaction of family and friends are the same..
all also give the reaction: huh?! really or not??! you don't trick us lar~~
and hereby telling all of you..i am telling the truth!!


but come to think of it..
somesays it's better to find a girlfriend when you still studying in university or college..
y said so~their explanation is that it's harder to find a girlfriend when you start working..
no free time,OT,work that has less amount of girls,tired of going out and etc...
i think that they will says like that is based on these factors..
in my opinion,this is quite true actually..
after graduate,you will need to start working..
and you tend to strive to get a better salary or some are luckier,straight away open up a business and be the boss of his/her own.
by that time,your time would be used at your work..
and mayb you also won't have the time for your family as well..
if like that,how are you going to have the chance of knowing any girl and be in a relationship?


like what i said to my buddies recently..
"I think it's good that i'm single,because you all can find me anytime you all wanted and i won't reject the offer to go out with you all..If i'm in a relationship/have a girlfriend,you all still think that i'll still go out with you all like i used to be?? it's a bit impossible ok.."
then my buddies debate with me and said: that's mean you will be 重色轻友 la?
then let me ask you all a question..
"did you all dare to say that you all didn't do so?"
then why whenever i want to ask you all come out,you all keep giving me the excuses of :
1. girlfriend don't want to give me go out
2. girlfriend come back, need to accompany her
3. girlfriend said want go here and there, need to go with her
and yet,i am an understanding man..
so i didn't care so much about this..
but when it comes to you all,please keep this in mind..
I'm also man like you all..
so..don't tend to say that i am 重色轻友..
cz i believe in 'don't comment on others behaviours that you have'


i assumed that i am the kind of guy that will think too far beyond..
and i'll think of a lot of thing  and assumption before i started / on the way tackling girl..
i will go and think of :
1. is it i have the basic requirment to go for a girl
2. is it i able to take care of the girl
3. how am i going to care for her and love her
4. we will have future or not and many more..
i started to have the style of thinking like this after few past failures in a relationship
and i tend to be more self-protective to prevent from getting hurt again and again..
and i started to become picky..just like what i've read from an article:
"good guy usually hard to find a girlfriend,because they will think of the consequences and more tend to be responsible than the bad guy..and for the bad guy,they just think of want to play with the girl only and never ever going to be serious in a relationship,therefore,any girls that close to their taste they will just go for it and won't like the good guy that will think seriously before doing it"
and i just can say that i am neither good guy or bad guy..because i am not so good guy yet i am not so bad to be a bad guy..


deep deep inside my heart..
the desire of being in a relationship are so so so strong.
but yet, there are lots of question that i need to asnwer first before i started..
that's why it's a bit hard for me to go into a relationship than other guys..
i do hope that these questions and problem can be solved after sometimes..
just don't know when...




thx for bearing with me for so long..
because this post is kind of long actually..
but anyway,all i have to say is already written out..
so i think it's time to off to bed and sleep already..
then, i think that's all..
~goodbye and good night~ 

~PEACE ya~