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Sunday, May 31, 2015

工作周年日~~

Hallllllooooooo Everybody!!!!
大家好啊~~~~!
好久不见呐~~~!!
终于。。。
又回到了这熟悉的地方,
一个我抒发我心情的地方。

忙忙碌碌的工作了那么久,才发现到刚好在现在工作的地方已待了一年之久,
而且老早已经打算好要做些什么蕃薯‘代治‘来庆祝一下。
殊不知。。。。。。。。
忙着忙着,过了都浑然不知!!!
毕竟前一个星期还在倒数的说!
哈哈哈~~
没办法啦~~~
人老了,是这样滴~~

现在就让我们继续走下去吧~~
看看我在这工作的感想。

话说。。。
在这里工作了一年,从一开始的头壳空空什么都不会,到现在的半知半解的半桶水程度,真的是谢天谢地我还在活着!
啊哈哈哈哈~~~

在这一年里,经历了很多事情,好坏参半。
好的是我从一开始就被安排了一个我还蛮喜欢的工作,就是当个VM staff,也就是所谓的Visual Merchandiser Staff ( 视觉营销人员)。
工作内容包括了要帮店内的人偶们(或者我比较喜欢把它们叫作我的男女朋友们!哈哈!)穿上当季的服装,然后要依照公司订下的方向来发挥一点点小创意。
对我来说,帮人家穿得好看是一件很开心的事来着,所以我也还蛮得心应手的。
几乎每个星期里都要几天会要重新帮男女朋友们换上新衣,真是少点体力都不得了!
而这只是工作范围的一部分而已。
当然我也还必须像普通员工一样做回普通员工该做的事情。
基于这样的工作范围的关系,我学到了很多该如何搭配服装的技巧,理所当然的也慢慢开始比较会去想、去注重服装搭配的细节,对我自身也带来了些许好处。
也因为这份工作的关系,让我可以适时的出席一些training,第一次搭飞机,也让我在最近的员工会议里当了模特儿,走了人生的第一场处女秀!
感觉不错哦~~
哈哈哈~~~!

当然,在这工作了那么久,也认识了一堆很不错的人。
(虽说可能到时候会分道扬镳的说!)
平常大家一起为了店里的事情拼,闲暇时就会打打嘴炮,聊个乱七八糟的事情。
虽说如此,但是不是天天天晴,也有乌云密布的时候。
争吵、你争我夺的事情当然也有。
只是对我而言,算了吧~~
这事儿伤身伤神啊~~~
一切顺其自然吧~~~

不好的事情嘛,当然也有~~
就是说,我的假日时间跟其他人都不一样。
由于我是在商场里工作的关系,变成说人家的周末日我也必须工作,
而我假日的时候确实其他人的工作日。
自然而然地,原本要好的朋友们我就慢慢的离他们的生活圈子越来越远了。
而且我的工作时间并不是固定的,而是每个星期都会更新。
这就造成了其他人要约我的时候,往往我都是在工作,而且每当我要找大家时,也碍于考虑到大伙隔一天早上还要爬起来工作,就只好打消念头噜~~
再加上我的个性又是那种等人找,不会主动去联络的,所以就有如雪上加霜版让这件事儿恶化。
看来,我得多主动点了吧~~~

再来就是我已经对这里开始慢慢的失去动力了,失去了当初的热衷。
而当然的我知道不只是我一个而已。
毕竟要同时间做好多样事情,而且评估的分数是因人而异。
也就是说,不同的上司会有不同的审核标准。
遇到好的,当然是最好不过了;遇到不好的,就阿弥陀佛呗~~~
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~!
但是,算了吧!!
我可以的!!
我可以熬过来!!
熬出个什么成绩来的!!
我是打不死的!!!!!!

看样子,写到这份上也应该够了吧~?
哈哈哈~~
虽然我是很想继续写下去,但是那些太细节的东西我担心文章会变得太过份的冗长,变得乏味!
而且。。。
那么细节的东西我也没必要告诉大家吧~~~!!
那~~~~
再见咯~~~~~~~~~~!!

走秀现场~~~ 紧张啊~~~~~!哈哈

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

[Speechless~~]

Seriously feeling all the disappointments and demotivation...
really not a good thing...
and i am trying hard to get over it...
keep trying to motivate myself back on course...
and headed to the goal of mine...
it's really hard...
but..
i believe i can and i will get over it no matter how...
just need some supports and the power to overcome these...
not gonna fall back no matter how...
cuz it's all bout looking forward and never look back...
i'm gonna go straight down the road of reaching my goals...
one step at a time..
and i believe i will reach eventually...

and i gonna thank all these that gonna make me stronger and stronger...
ain't no tolerance to negative stuffs!!
#BigJimgotGUTS




Fuck'em!!!

Friday, October 17, 2014

The Returns

YO!! Big Jim Is BACK!!!
Hell yeah~~~~
I am back in blogging after neglecting it for almost a year...
*Shout!!!!*

Muahahaha
alright, nothing special to be told now....
but BEHOLD!!
there are stories that gonna be updated soon after I get the result I wanted...
Just some short updates to you guys of what happened to me since my last post on March:
I have found a job that I quite like bout it and I am working my way towards something that I have been wanted from the beginning. So most of the thing is quite good for now, just that I have lessen the time to get my hands on that bball and workouts lately. But I should be trying to solve this after I settled down soon.

So till here for this time..
Please wait for the next update...
and I promise it's a real soon one...
Hahaha

Ciao~~~! =)

Saturday, March 15, 2014

梦想。。
到底有多遥远?
并不是我不够勇敢去追寻。。
而是。。
为了去追,我只好让自己承受一切。。
一切的不理解与鄙视的眼神。。
痛苦?
那是必然。。
愤怒?
那也是一定的。。
但我又能如何。。
毕竟说了,也等于没说。。
只能把这些咕咚一声都吞了。。
是的。。
都吞了!

有那么一朝。。
我相信。。
我绝对相信。。
我会证明我并没有后悔这样。。

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

words for myself

All I need now
is the power
the will and
the courage
to take a big big leap
confidently
strongly

I need to keep reminding myself
I got nothing to lose
I got no commitment for now
and I ain't gonna give up so easily

Make a move!!
Take action!!!

Saturday, July 20, 2013

把头往上抬仰望着夜空
看着那皎洁如白玉的月亮
虽然已经不是在同一个地方
但还是依旧的美丽动人
很想把这一刻都定格
但这么做是很不妥当
时间一去不回
回忆就只能是回忆
只能把眼光向前看

看来我也是时候把我的脚步放快了
毕竟一直以来我都是把脚步放慢
慢慢的观察四周围的人、事、物
整个生活步调都要比别人还慢
现在,看来是已经不再允许我这么做
也许在未来的某一天
当我的一切都定了下来
可能可以重新的放慢脚步
牵着自己喜欢的人
慢慢的体验生活、享受生活

就是那么一个我
那个人前嘻嘻哈哈
人后就静得可怕的我
总会在那寂静无声的夜里
对着屏幕
敲打着键盘
安静的聆听着自己
然后慢慢的让情绪一点一点的释放出来
有时会失控般无声的痛哭流泪
有时却可以控制着情绪的暴走
当一切恢复平静
我也大概已经渐入梦乡
隔天醒来
又可以在人前嘻嘻哈哈不断
也许我真的把一切都压抑得好好的
所以朋友都不能轻易察觉到我的这一面
除了从我文章里看出一些端倪
“酒逢知己千杯少,话不投机半句多”
这话可是千真万确

p/s: 倒数一个星期

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Origin of my Friendships

Come to think of it
Most of my friendships or my networks were built based on one thing
Which is BASKETBALL!!
This is what I can really think of when i reviewing my past friendship and discover till the root of it
There's always be BASKETBALL
From there
My network just expanded and expanded
Then reach out to others

Throughout all the years I have been playing basketball
The fellas that I have known through this sports are still increasing
No matter the good ones or the bad ones
I am still glad that I have met these guys
The bad ones might just be forgotten
For the good ones
Most of them I think of them as my bros
My brothers!
I am treasuring these relationships
Maybe most of you will think another way round
But no matter how
I still will think of you all as my BROS

Maybe most of the times i speak very straight forward
And you all might felt quite uneasy and annoyed with it
Hence I'm gonna apologize to all of you here
And thanks you all for bearing with me for such long time
I do appreciated that

So, Thanks Again
I just don't know what can I do without you all
=)

Saturday, June 22, 2013

皎洁明媚的月亮
高高地挂在天上
此时此刻我在想
慢慢就陷入惆怅

生活就将迈向新的方向
很多事情让我晕头转向
不怕成为不了一名大将
是自己还搞不清楚方向


Wednesday, June 19, 2013

最近真的是事情一箩筐
自己都还没真正的反应过来
但是我相信一切都会有解答

现在的我
正在做着最后的挣扎
就像快要溺毙了急着滑动着手脚想要呼吸到那么一口气
我仿佛就处于一个进退两难的局面
不做任何挣扎而死去
或者极力挣扎直到筋疲力尽而亡

唉~~
年纪也不轻噜~~
过了下个月
2字头的岁月也只剩下一半了
可以挥霍的青春也所剩无几
到现在身上还是一无所有
即不能够让家人过上好生活
也更别说拥有个情人老婆
即没一个属于自己的家
也更别说是自己的一辆车
所有的所有
不能怨谁
要怨的话,就怨自己


Thursday, May 2, 2013

Lol...
Hey guys, I am back..
I think my blog is becoming less and less frequently update already..
The last update was a month ago..
Damn...
LAZY ME~~!

Alright,
It's already 2nd May by the time I write this post..
So it's almost half of 2013..
And it's the middle of final exam period for UTAR student..
Come to think of it..
I admit that I was quite freak out with the exam currently..
Cuz it's the matter of stay or leave, abandon or complete..
There're things playing in my minds when it's nearer to the end of the semester..
I'm just totally blur and dunno what to do, or where should I go..
And one thing I know is that I am carrying the "FACE" of my family..
Hence I shouldn't done somethings that will disgrace my family..
But yet I have been doing it since the first semester of my Uni life..
I can nearly see a big capital letter "L" on my forehead already..

Anyhow..
Life still goes on..
Whether there would changes or not..
Just stay tuned and see how it would be..

"Play like a young man, Think like a mature man"

Sunday, March 31, 2013

与决赛又再一次的擦肩而过。。
是的。。
昨天晚上,是我参加的篮球比赛的四强赛。。
谁赢了,就可以挺进决赛。。
但是很遗憾的,我们输了那么的两分。。
不多不少,刚刚好一颗球———两分。。
结果我们就只能放眼在今晚的3-4名的比赛。。
心里总觉得不是味儿。。
毕竟,没能给队友们帮上了什么忙。。
只会越帮越忙。。
稳定性-----没有
效率-------没有
技术-------没有
而且比赛的氛围也没有很好。。。

是时候了吧~?
差不多该停止做梦了吧~?
虽然清楚地知道,再怎么的努力,也应该没剩下多少时间了。。
而且也清楚知道,再怎么的努力,也应该当不成什么代表了。。
该是时候沉淀下来,把梦藏在内心深处。。
只在那夜深人静、夜黑风高的夜里,才慢慢的拿出来,细细的回味了吧~?

#Basketball For Life# ??

Monday, March 18, 2013

long waited update

hell yeah...
finally i have come back to here once more...
sorry my long ignored private space of mine...
not my intention to ignore you..
hahaha...

alright..
continue with the post now..

the passing weekend was something for me...
1st - one of my bros birthday..
2nd - attending friend's convo...

for the 1st one..
i think is the first time i celebrate his birthday after knew him for so long..
first we planned to leave the time for him and his girl for the birthday celebration..
but i was told by his girlfriend that she has order a customized cake which weight about 2kg..
therefore, i went and ask the teammates see whether any of them would like to attend or not..
sadly not all can attend...
so we would just go with the rest of us..
his girlfriend was totally nervous bout celebrating his birthday...
and i kept telling her relax...
haha...
it's quite funny but very sweet though... =D
in the end, birthday surprise successful i guessed~?
and happy birthday to him..

2nd one is where one of my ex-housemate a.k.a my coursemate has ask me to attend his convo on sunday..
i've promised him to go and bought him a hand craft doll as present..
and the night before his convo, we are having a supper session just before the celebration of my bro's birthday..
i have been informed of the good news from him that he will going to be promoted as audit manager after 2 months, which 1 year since he starts working in that company since May last year...
and he had invited me to travel to KL two months later to find him..
i am glad that he had achieve success after a short period after finish study...
i felt kinda guilty to myself as others already move on to the other stage of their life already and i am still struggling and staying on the current stage like stuck in the muddy road...
it is a mix feeling of joy and guilt when seeing others finished their study and attended their convo...
so i guess i am pretty useless most of the time ya..

so just be it..
gonna hit the sack in a while...
good day, good morning and good night peeps...
=)

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

傻瓜,也蛮幸福吧?


我承认我很不喜欢一些人在背地里说三道四,而我自己也并非是这种人。
(除非情况需要我这样做以外)
俗语说得好:明枪易挡,暗箭难防。
我是个很单纯、憨直的家伙,有什么东西你都可以直接当着我面跟我说,好过在我背后说东说西的。
当着我面说,起码我还会视情况如何来找正确的对策,可能还有朋友可以做,因为我会衡量之前相处的好与坏而给与反应。
反而如果你要在背后来阴的,要么你我到死都不知道或都不被识破,要么让我知道后大闹一顿然后断绝来往。
我虽然算是个会记仇的人,但是我懂得给与别人机会。
如果我给了机会还是一样的话,那只好说再见了。
相信我已经把我很不喜欢被冤枉或被点名在跟我一点都扯不上关系的事物说了很多遍了。
我再重复,我真的不是很喜欢这样的感觉。
而且这也是蛮挑战我的忍耐度的,因为是我最不喜欢的前几名。。
当被给予不存在的罪名,然后再在面前咄咄逼人的被数落一番,自己也会觉得不好受吧~?
以其人之道还治其人之身,总有一天自己也会被他人以同样的方式对待。
况且,在口舌之战中称王称后的,很好听吗?会得到优待吗?
话说得没错,口齿伶俐的人,八九不离十也是个聪明伶俐的人。
但若从口中说出的净是些缺乏智慧的言论,说到底也只不过是在耍嘴皮子、耍小聪明罢了,根本称不上是个聪明人,还是该小心聪明反被聪明误。
我并不那么会举一反三,口条并不是那么好,所以很多时候我都是静静的听人家说。
但是起码我还会一点点分辨什么可以说,什么不可以说。
这也多得我妈从小的训导。
而且我妈从小就灌输我“能忍则忍”的概念,让我可以把事情看得更开一些,以至于避开一些不必要的烦恼。
所以我都把视野放宽,也不会拼了老命去钻牛角尖,人也比较开朗一些,更不会对问题久久都纠缠不放。

人生活着,也不过那短短的几十年,何必总是让烦恼把自己搞得那么的痛苦。
把视野放宽、放大,专注与快乐的事情和回忆,忽略不开心的那一块,那人也自然而然的变得更开朗些。
也许,也会长命一些。

或许,可以把自己当成一个“大傻瓜”吧~~~!
做个开心的傻瓜应该胜过做个烦恼多多的普通人吧~?
哈哈哈哈哈~!


Friday, January 4, 2013

A Brand New Year 2013

Muahahahaha....
I think it's been a very long time till my latest blog post...
But..
Who cares~?
Anyways, it's already another brand new year..
So, the count is reset and start all over again...
NEAT~!
=P

Alright..
Stop fooling around already...
I know it's quite late to blog about new year and Christmas already...
So, I'm not gonna make it very long...
Just simple will do...

How I celebrate these holidays~?
Oh ya..
One word with six letters...
S.I.M.P.L.E.

A simple dinner with bunch of buddies on a nice restaurant...
After that some dessert session with them..
Then went back home before 12am..
For new year eve..
Outing with my "sis" and her friends for a drink at Autocity...
We went there quite late due to the traffic congestion near to Juru there...
Me and her watched the fireworks inside the car when we still finding parking slot around there...
Then afterwards go find my bros to checkout what they discussing about...
Cause one of my bros is getting married on this coming Sunday ( 6 / 1 / 2013 )...
And we are his groomsmen, so need to discuss some stuffs together..
I guess within this year, i will be getting more and more weddings news from my friends around me..
So, just wish them live happily ever after...
Looking forward on this coming Sunday...
Hahaha...

Finally..
Attach the photo of the last day of last year...
Happy New Year 2013~!


Tuesday, November 27, 2012

First Basketball Champion for Open Category

Well well well...
Look who's back on his dusty blog...
Hahahaha....
Ya ya..
It's me...
The lazy ass blog owner...
'The Lazy-Lonely-Lion"..
>___<


Well...
I finally have the mood and inspiration to update my blog...
Here goes my update...


Left: First Basketball Open Gold Medal
Right: a disappointing Bronze Medal

Yup...
Yesterday was a very tiring day for me...
as i am having two competition that is going on in the same day..
but what i did before competition day was having liquor and party hard with my bros...
until i don't have enough time to rest and straight away off to campus for the sport carnival basketball match..
the smells of liquor is so strong until people around keep asking me is it i okay or not to play the game..
as i expected, stamina dropped and body balancing also got affected..
cant really perform well..
and in the get bronze medal out of three teams that participate..
which is in other words: the No.1 counted backward

but during the competition is going on..
something happened to one of my bro that participate in the game..
having a bone fracture on his head and he was shouting in pain...
we can clearly see that there is dent on the location where he's being hit..
then we quickly sent him to the Kampar Hospital for treatment..
and yet..
the stupid government hospital did disappointed us again with it's slow and inefficient service..
waited for almost an hour and a half..
he came out on a wheel chair headed to ambulance and waited to be sent to Ipoh GH to check in details..
Hopefully he's gonna be alright real soon...

During night time...
it's the Final of the Kampar Open Basketball Competition..
and the tiring me slept till i nearly forgot that i still got an important game to play..
after i saw the time showing 6:59pm, i faster get myself up and go prepare already..
because the match will start at 7:30pm...
and i go there with feeling dizziness after prepared...
i was sitting at the bench watching all my awesome teammates fighting hard to won the champion and giving them supports when every times out or break time after a quarter..
i got to go down on court and played the last few minutes of the 4th and last quarter of the game..
and that time the score of opponent team and us is very very close..
luckily we still can maintain our lead and make them got frustrated and foul on us..
in the end..
We Claimed The CHAMPION of this competition..
the feeling is so good!!

I am going to end here...
Readers, please stay tuned for next update ya..
Hahahahahahaha~~~~~

Finally, the photo of the CHAMPS~!

The awesome teammates for the Kampar Open Basketball Competition 2012
THE SHARK TROOPERS

Saturday, October 6, 2012

《徘徊在电梯里的爱情》(二)

上文提要:

在詹姆被黄小姐狠狠地甩了以后,心里受着伤的詹姆变得比前还要孤僻、更少说话,看到其他住户时,也少了以往的点头与微笑,恐怖得来又让人多一份同情。。。


〈继续〉
詹姆对感情这样东西已经感到心灰意冷了,而他也觉得他需要好一阵子来振作起来。自从被甩以后,詹姆总是抱着一种“女人,都是不可靠、不可信赖”的态度来看待身边的女性。撇开自己的母亲还有两个妹妹不说,他总会对身边的女人多了一份提防的心,在和女性相处的时候也会刻意的划清界限。尤其是当他看到那些彷彿像只花蝴蝶一样的女生,在男生堆里打滚的时候,他的眼神会变得更加的锐利,而且充满了狠意,何其恐怖。

但是詹姆这个样子,却一直被某个人默默地关注着,詹姆的每一举一动都不会错过。而这个人,也是詹姆在这段时间里,唯一一个可以算是比较聊得来的女性朋友。她,是詹姆唯一情愿把心里所有的事情都告诉的人,也是唯一一个知道为什么詹姆会那么仇视那些女人的人。当然,也是暂时唯一一个了解詹姆的女人。这女人姓颜,故称她为颜小姐吧!话说,在詹姆刚被甩的某一天晚上,詹姆因为啤酒喝完了又觉得刚才的量麻醉不了自己,所以又到附近的便利超商买了一打的啤酒,踩着摇晃不定的步伐,慢慢的走回家。就在到达公寓庭院的时候,詹姆因为脚步不稳绊倒自己的脚,顿时跌了个狗吃屎。但是此时此刻的詹姆完全感觉不到疼痛,只是觉得眼前的一切都像是在经历着大地震般的晃动着。这时,有个小姐经过那里,看到詹姆那狼狈的样子,就急忙走过来看看詹姆。在问明白了詹姆的住址之后,便扶着詹姆进入公寓的大厅,搭着电梯把詹姆送回家去。在电梯里,酒精好像完全攻陷了詹姆似的,搞得他乱发酒疯,拼了命的一直数落着女人们的种种不是,却不知道此时此刻正在扶着他的也是一个女人。等到他发完了酒疯,头一歪,向旁一倒,便靠在那小姐的肩上,而那小姐为了只能让詹姆把头靠在她肩膀上了。到了詹姆家里,那小姐小心翼翼的扶着詹姆进入他的房间,然后让他躺在床上,再帮他敷上热毛巾,盖了被救准备离开了。就在要离开之际,詹姆突然间一把把那小姐的手抓着,然后口齿不清的喊着;“不要走~!你不要走~!”,无论那小姐怎么挣扎也挣不开詹姆的手,她也只好坐在詹姆的床边,看着他慢慢的冷静下来然后睡着。在看着詹姆入睡时,那小姐觉得这个男生的睡相挺可爱下,人应该也会蛮不错的。她也随之发现到詹姆床边的小矮柜上有一本便利贴,就随手拿过来然后拿出笔来,写下自己的联络号码,然后调皮的把便利贴贴在詹姆的额头,确定詹姆已经熟睡了以后就离开了詹姆的家。而这位好心的小姐,便是上面所提到的颜小姐啦!

当詹姆隔天醒来的时候,发现额头前好像被什么东西粘着,便把它取下来,才看到颜小姐留下的一番话还有联络方式。詹姆考虑了很久,把电话拿起来,按了几个号码又删掉,然后又把电话放在一边,一直在重复如此的动作。终于,在过了一个星期以后,詹姆终于写了一封信息,然后发给了颜小姐。

詹姆:谢谢你。
颜小姐:谢谢?请问你是?
詹姆:谢谢你那天晚上扶我回家,住在幸福公寓的。
颜小姐:我想起来了!就是那个醉得一塌糊涂的醉猫!哈哈!!
詹姆:真不好意思,麻烦你了。
颜小姐:没关系,没关系。怎么那么久以后才给人发信息呢?
詹姆:我那天过后都在忙嘛~

就这样,詹姆和颜小姐两个人就这样你来我往的发送着信息,联络了一段日子。过了一阵子,两人的信息就越来越暧昧,然后也越来越频密,直到了有一天,颜小姐通过信息问了詹姆这样的一个问题:

颜小姐:为什么你还不能忘掉之前的伤痛,而向前走呢?
詹姆:因为印象太深刻了,不是说忘掉就能忘掉。
颜小姐:如果说前面有个喜欢你的人在等着你呢?你舍得让她那么等下去吗?
詹姆:哎呀,我这样的人,哪有人会那么傻喜欢上我呢?真是好笑。
颜小姐:如果。。。如果我说我就是那个喜欢上你的傻瓜呢?
詹姆:哈哈哈~!!你就别跟我开玩笑,都我开心了啦!
颜小姐:我。。。我是认真的!!
詹姆:什么?!
颜小姐:我说我是认真的!我喜欢你!!想要当你的女朋友,照顾你,陪你走出悲伤!
詹姆:我。。。我。。。让我考虑考虑吧!明天会给你一个交代。
颜小姐:我。。。知道了。(哭脸)

整个晚上,詹姆都不能入眠,一直都在想着颜小姐提出当他女朋友的事情。詹姆会这样也是应该的,因为他和颜小姐虽然一直都在信息还有通过电话,但是却没见过一面。詹姆害怕着这会是一个玩笑,但是当他回想起颜小姐那无微不至的关心,时时都那么关心着他,虽然只能通过电话还有信息,但詹姆确实地能够感受到颜小姐的关怀,所以这也是为什么他迟迟都不能作出决定的原因。经过一夜的深思熟虑,终于詹姆接受了颜小姐的告白,两人正式成为了情侣。成为了情侣之后,彼此间变得更亲密,在信息里、在电话里都不难发现那比蜜糖还要甜的甜蜜话语,甚至两人都一起买了同款的笔电,然后透过笔电的摄像头看看彼此的模样,还截图把图当成自己手机的背景图案。

詹姆又陷入了甜蜜的爱河里了,天天都以笑脸面对大家,大家都在为他开心。


*待续*


#本故事纯属虚构,如有雷同纯属巧合#

Monday, September 24, 2012

若不是昨天去买晚餐吃的时候。。
被那家店的老板突如其来的问起。。
我应该还会继续以为我到现在也只单身了不久罢了。。
就在付钱的当儿,这是我和老板的对话。。

我    :多少钱?
老板:RM3.50
(给了钱。。)
老板:你从来都没谈过恋爱?
我    :有啊。
老板:那你没有(谈恋爱)多久了?
(我被这突如其来的问题问倒,就开始算起来离我上一次恋爱的时间。)
我    :差不多要四年咯。。
老板:哇~那么久了啊?亏你还忍得住。
(我一时之间也不懂该怎么回答老板什么,就笑一笑,然后就离开了。)

在回家的路途中。。
我就一直在想:哇~~不知不觉也这么久了哦~~到底是从什么时候开始慢慢不去计算我单身的日子的呢?
然后也一直感慨原来就这样,四年了。。
说长不长,说短不短。。
在这四年中,也并非完全没有对象。。
只是肯能方式、条件都不对不足。。
所以才没办法有任何结果吧~

那么就继续检讨自己,增值自己吧~
直到自己变得更有能力,更有自信吧~~

Saturday, September 1, 2012

《徘徊在电梯里的爱情》(一)

叮!电梯到达底层的声音划过了整个幸福公寓的大厅。这时,一个身高五尺八、其貌不扬的男人以急忙的脚步,匆匆地走进了电梯里。这个男人是这个幸福公寓的住户,就住在顶楼的28房里。这个男人的名字叫詹姆,平常都比较孤陋寡言,甚少跟其他住在公寓里的住户有所交流,顶多也都只是那么微微的点个头、笑一笑,都不怎么深入的聊天。平常詹姆也都是独来独往,鲜少看到他带异性朋友甚至一些同性朋友回来。詹姆看了看大厅的四周,确定没人了以后,就按了顶楼的按钮准备上楼了。

就在电梯门就要关上的那一刻,詹姆突然听到了一个声音从大厅里传来,“请等一下!请等一下!”。当电梯门打开的一刹那,詹姆对面前走进来的人眼睛为之一亮。这时因为走进电梯的是一个蓄着一头个性短发、五官精致的女人。詹姆看着那女人看得呆站在那,也忘了按下楼层的按钮,直到那女人说:“先生,不好意思,麻烦你帮我按下四楼的按钮。” 詹姆这才回过神来,匆匆按下四楼的按钮。詹姆觉得他的脸颊发烫,心跳也特别的快,快到要负荷不了了。他也只好低着头,深怕会被那个女人看到他现在的窘态。就在这时,那女人向詹姆搭话了。“刚才真谢谢你,让我赶得上电梯。不然的话,我可要浪费多一点时间来等下一趟的电梯噜~~!”,那女人说道。詹姆艰难的嘴里吐出几个字,“不。。不。。不客气!”,然后对着那女人笑了一笑就别过身去了。这时那女人又问道:“咦~?你脸怎么那么红?你不舒服吗?” 这让詹姆完全不知道该怎么办,只好随随便便的说,“没。。没有,只是稍微有点热而已。” 那女人继续说道:“还真的是有点热。真不好意思,还没自我介绍我自己。你好,我姓黄,叫小坊,前几天才刚搬过来这里。你呢?是这里的住户吗?” 詹姆回答道,“黄。。黄小姐,你。。你好。我叫詹姆,是这里的住户,就住在顶楼。” 黄小姐甜甜的继续说:“那以后记得多多关照哦~哈哈。” 詹姆心想:怎么从底层到四层的时间那么久,好像是到不了的距离似的。而这时间可是久得可以让詹姆深深地被黄小姐迷住了。终于,抵达四楼电梯的声音叮的一声把詹姆拉回现实里,黄小姐也朝着詹姆挥挥手道别了。詹姆的心情在此刻才可以轻松下来,恢复以往的平静。

在接下来的日子里,詹姆与黄小姐接触得越来越频繁,而且关系也好像变得越来越亲密。原因就在于詹姆一直在电梯里与黄小姐不期而遇,而黄小姐也经常在遇到时就和詹姆聊聊天,甚至还邀请了詹姆过去她家,试试她的厨艺或者帮她修理家里一些故障的电器或家具。就这样连平常不苟言笑的詹姆也不知何时悄悄地把笑容挂在脸上了。渐渐的,詹姆便经常和黄小姐经常的出双入对,时而牵着手,时而搂着腰,好像要想全世界宣布他们就是热恋中的甜蜜恋人似的,恨不得让全世界的人都嫉妒。

就在大家都以为以往独来独往的詹姆已经变得像现在那么平易近人的时候,不知怎么的,笑容已从詹姆的脸上消失了、不见了。取而代之的是一脸忧愁,刮不干净的胡渣和一双无神的眼睛。而且,昔日陪着一起出双入对的黄小姐也不见踪影了。这到底是怎么一回事~? 原来,詹姆已经被黄小姐给甩了。事发在他们交往的第三个月开始,黄小姐就慢慢的开始嫌弃詹姆那少过四位数的银行户口本子。是的,一开始黄小姐给予詹姆的印象全都只是表面功夫而已,在他们交往了以后才慢慢的显露出她的本性,那现实、见钱眼开的那一面。奈何詹姆只是个文员,薪水也是那区区的两千多块钱,而且又要供楼、供车、供妹妹读大学,哪来那么多钱呢?所以詹姆和黄小姐之间就开始产生了摩擦,而最后黄小姐就把詹姆甩了,然后奔向另一个有财有势的男人的怀抱里去,留下心里受着伤的詹姆一个人。而詹姆也变得比前还要孤僻、更少说话,看到其他住户时,也少了以往的点头与微笑,恐怖得来又让人多一份同情。


*待续*


#本故事纯属虚构,如有雷同纯属巧合#

Monday, August 20, 2012

寂寞來了怎麼辦


三點半 三點半 我還不想睡
跟孤獨糾纏一整夜 任寂寞爬上我床沿
怎麼辦 怎麼辦 沒有人聊天
深夜裡重播的影片 像日子重播一百遍

也許明天會好些 孤單感覺少一些
但是回到家裡關上了門 一切又重演

寂寞來了怎麼辦 孤單來了怎麼辦
明明關上了門 卻還是有寂寞吹進來
寂寞來了怎麼辦 躲不掉也逃不開
能不能 跟誰借一點溫暖

怎麼辦 怎麼辦 找個人來陪
摸索著彼此的漆黑 天一亮故事就終結

隨便找個人聊天 或者不只聊聊天
但是回到家裡關上了門 一切又重演

寂寞來了怎麼辦 孤單來了怎麼辦
明明關上了門 卻還是有寂寞吹進來
寂寞來了怎麼辦 躲不掉也逃不開
能不能 跟誰借一點溫暖

寂寞來了怎麼辦 孤單來了怎麼辦
明明關上了門 卻還是有寂寞吹進來
寂寞來了怎麼辦 躲不掉也逃不開
是不是 你和我一樣孤單



Saturday, August 11, 2012

nothing but stress

Hey guys...
I've come to update my blog again...
It's just the end of second week of August only and I can already started to feel the pressure like I never felt before...
Thought of I can handle the pressure nicely...
But still, it has hit me without me noticing bout it...

Seriously..
I was damn pissed with the fella i am working on for my Final Year Project...
This is where most of the pressures coming from..
Ask him to do work like ask him to take a needle to poke himself in his fucking ass like that...
Keep on rushing himself to give out his part that he is being assigned without further thought of what his part really need...
Then ends up all the things come out from his work cannot be used and we are the one who have to help him to do back his work...
Just like today during we do our thing in the library..
My leader found out that one part of his shitty works is complete copy and paste from the sample i have distributed to every one of my group member..
Then i asked him what's that..
You all what is fucking answer he told me~?!!
"I correct and edit it again lor~~"
What the FUCK~!
He can say like that without need to process with his bean-like brain..
Both me and my leader were so blown away when heard him answer like that..
Then some more dare to leave when we are working hard on our thing without acknowledging us..
So no manner...

All these things have makes me all stressed out....
and i am trying everything to stay calm and relax...
but i think not so effective anyway..

i really dunno...
feel like talking to someone...
but i pull myself back from doing so...
to be strong?


p/s: i think i should put aside the thought of finding a gf for now.. cause the distance seem like getting further and further...