若不是昨天去买晚餐吃的时候。。
被那家店的老板突如其来的问起。。
我应该还会继续以为我到现在也只单身了不久罢了。。
就在付钱的当儿，这是我和老板的对话。。

我    ：多少钱？
老板：RM3.50
（给了钱。。）
老板：你从来都没谈过恋爱？
我    ：有啊。
老板：那你没有（谈恋爱）多久了？
（我被这突如其来的问题问倒，就开始算起来离我上一次恋爱的时间。）
我    ：差不多要四年咯。。
老板：哇~那么久了啊？亏你还忍得住。
（我一时之间也不懂该怎么回答老板什么，就笑一笑，然后就离开了。）

在回家的路途中。。
我就一直在想：哇~~不知不觉也这么久了哦~~到底是从什么时候开始慢慢不去计算我单身的日子的呢？
然后也一直感慨原来就这样，四年了。。
说长不长，说短不短。。
在这四年中，也并非完全没有对象。。
只是肯能方式、条件都不对不足。。
所以才没办法有任何结果吧~

那么就继续检讨自己，增值自己吧~
直到自己变得更有能力，更有自信吧~~

《徘徊在电梯里的爱情》（一）

叮！电梯到达底层的声音划过了整个幸福公寓的大厅。这时，一个身高五尺八、其貌不扬的男人以急忙的脚步，匆匆地走进了电梯里。这个男人是这个幸福公寓的住户，就住在顶楼的28房里。这个男人的名字叫詹姆，平常都比较孤陋寡言，甚少跟其他住在公寓里的住户有所交流，顶多也都只是那么微微的点个头、笑一笑，都不怎么深入的聊天。平常詹姆也都是独来独往，鲜少看到他带异性朋友甚至一些同性朋友回来。詹姆看了看大厅的四周，确定没人了以后，就按了顶楼的按钮准备上楼了。

就在电梯门就要关上的那一刻，詹姆突然听到了一个声音从大厅里传来，“请等一下！请等一下！”。当电梯门打开的一刹那，詹姆对面前走进来的人眼睛为之一亮。这时因为走进电梯的是一个蓄着一头个性短发、五官精致的女人。詹姆看着那女人看得呆站在那，也忘了按下楼层的按钮，直到那女人说：“先生，不好意思，麻烦你帮我按下四楼的按钮。” 詹姆这才回过神来，匆匆按下四楼的按钮。詹姆觉得他的脸颊发烫，心跳也特别的快，快到要负荷不了了。他也只好低着头，深怕会被那个女人看到他现在的窘态。就在这时，那女人向詹姆搭话了。“刚才真谢谢你，让我赶得上电梯。不然的话，我可要浪费多一点时间来等下一趟的电梯噜~~！”，那女人说道。詹姆艰难的嘴里吐出几个字，“不。。不。。不客气！”，然后对着那女人笑了一笑就别过身去了。这时那女人又问道：“咦~？你脸怎么那么红？你不舒服吗？” 这让詹姆完全不知道该怎么办，只好随随便便的说，“没。。没有，只是稍微有点热而已。” 那女人继续说道：“还真的是有点热。真不好意思，还没自我介绍我自己。你好，我姓黄，叫小坊，前几天才刚搬过来这里。你呢？是这里的住户吗？” 詹姆回答道，“黄。。黄小姐，你。。你好。我叫詹姆，是这里的住户，就住在顶楼。” 黄小姐甜甜的继续说：“那以后记得多多关照哦~哈哈。” 詹姆心想：怎么从底层到四层的时间那么久，好像是到不了的距离似的。而这时间可是久得可以让詹姆深深地被黄小姐迷住了。终于，抵达四楼电梯的声音叮的一声把詹姆拉回现实里，黄小姐也朝着詹姆挥挥手道别了。詹姆的心情在此刻才可以轻松下来，恢复以往的平静。

在接下来的日子里，詹姆与黄小姐接触得越来越频繁，而且关系也好像变得越来越亲密。原因就在于詹姆一直在电梯里与黄小姐不期而遇，而黄小姐也经常在遇到时就和詹姆聊聊天，甚至还邀请了詹姆过去她家，试试她的厨艺或者帮她修理家里一些故障的电器或家具。就这样连平常不苟言笑的詹姆也不知何时悄悄地把笑容挂在脸上了。渐渐的，詹姆便经常和黄小姐经常的出双入对，时而牵着手，时而搂着腰，好像要想全世界宣布他们就是热恋中的甜蜜恋人似的，恨不得让全世界的人都嫉妒。

就在大家都以为以往独来独往的詹姆已经变得像现在那么平易近人的时候，不知怎么的，笑容已从詹姆的脸上消失了、不见了。取而代之的是一脸忧愁，刮不干净的胡渣和一双无神的眼睛。而且，昔日陪着一起出双入对的黄小姐也不见踪影了。这到底是怎么一回事~？ 原来，詹姆已经被黄小姐给甩了。事发在他们交往的第三个月开始，黄小姐就慢慢的开始嫌弃詹姆那少过四位数的银行户口本子。是的，一开始黄小姐给予詹姆的印象全都只是表面功夫而已，在他们交往了以后才慢慢的显露出她的本性，那现实、见钱眼开的那一面。奈何詹姆只是个文员，薪水也是那区区的两千多块钱，而且又要供楼、供车、供妹妹读大学，哪来那么多钱呢？所以詹姆和黄小姐之间就开始产生了摩擦，而最后黄小姐就把詹姆甩了，然后奔向另一个有财有势的男人的怀抱里去，留下心里受着伤的詹姆一个人。而詹姆也变得比前还要孤僻、更少说话，看到其他住户时，也少了以往的点头与微笑，恐怖得来又让人多一份同情。


*待续*


#本故事纯属虚构，如有雷同纯属巧合#

寂寞來了怎麼辦

三點半　三點半　我還不想睡

跟孤獨糾纏一整夜　任寂寞爬上我床沿

怎麼辦　怎麼辦　沒有人聊天

深夜裡重播的影片　像日子重播一百遍

也許明天會好些　孤單感覺少一些

但是回到家裡關上了門　一切又重演

寂寞來了怎麼辦　孤單來了怎麼辦

明明關上了門　卻還是有寂寞吹進來

寂寞來了怎麼辦　躲不掉也逃不開

能不能　跟誰借一點溫暖

怎麼辦　怎麼辦　找個人來陪

摸索著彼此的漆黑　天一亮故事就終結

隨便找個人聊天　或者不只聊聊天

但是回到家裡關上了門　一切又重演

寂寞來了怎麼辦　孤單來了怎麼辦

明明關上了門　卻還是有寂寞吹進來

寂寞來了怎麼辦　躲不掉也逃不開

能不能　跟誰借一點溫暖

寂寞來了怎麼辦　孤單來了怎麼辦

明明關上了門　卻還是有寂寞吹進來

寂寞來了怎麼辦　躲不掉也逃不開

是不是　你和我一樣孤單

nothing but stress

Hey guys...
I've come to update my blog again...
It's just the end of second week of August only and I can already started to feel the pressure like I never felt before...
Thought of I can handle the pressure nicely...
But still, it has hit me without me noticing bout it...

Seriously..
I was damn pissed with the fella i am working on for my Final Year Project...
This is where most of the pressures coming from..
Ask him to do work like ask him to take a needle to poke himself in his fucking ass like that...
Keep on rushing himself to give out his part that he is being assigned without further thought of what his part really need...
Then ends up all the things come out from his work cannot be used and we are the one who have to help him to do back his work...
Just like today during we do our thing in the library..
My leader found out that one part of his shitty works is complete copy and paste from the sample i have distributed to every one of my group member..
Then i asked him what's that..
You all what is fucking answer he told me~?!!
"I correct and edit it again lor~~"
What the FUCK~!
He can say like that without need to process with his bean-like brain..
Both me and my leader were so blown away when heard him answer like that..
Then some more dare to leave when we are working hard on our thing without acknowledging us..
So no manner...

All these things have makes me all stressed out....
and i am trying everything to stay calm and relax...
but i think not so effective anyway..

i really dunno...
feel like talking to someone...
but i pull myself back from doing so...
to be strong?


p/s: i think i should put aside the thought of finding a gf for now.. cause the distance seem like getting further and further...

First post for August

Wassup people~?!
It's a brand new month already...
Everything okay~?
haha...

It's already week 10 for my current semester..
still left 4 more weeks before exam...
and also 2 more weeks before my Final Year Presentation...
and quite a lots of things are bugging in my mind currently...
i am trying to solve them one by one...

so far...
i do worry and scare for my result this semester...
it would be very troublesome if i cannot manage to pass it....
i must pass it in case i can pull up my CGPA to 2.0.....
and i hope my Final Year Project can score higher grade...
but sadly...
troubles keep on arisen...
and cannot be solve...
i also very speechless and helpless due to this problem..
then there was the basketball competition that supposed should be organized long long time ago...
but after delayed for so long..
now just set the date of competition on study week and throughout whole exam period till next semester..
this causes few of the players in our team to bail out from the game...
then now need to find two or four more players to play in the team...
and it's hard to do so cause not much players that can get recently....
not to say i look down on other people...
and i know that i am not a very good player too....
but still...
i wanna find some that can really play..
at least can have a little bit competition with other teams...
but then what to do...
the due date for registration is 3 weeks away...
must speed up the process already...

AND~~~
i have officially passed my 24th birthday and start counting down for 25th already...
am getting older and older already...
have passed a peaceful and quiet birthday this year...
and yet it's not a bad thing after all...
so, i'll keep my wishes inside my heart and just hope for it may come true someday~?
haha...

Okay...
it's time to get some sleep...
good night people~!

p/s: is it being single for too long will kills the ability of a guy to go for a girl~? Curious~~~~