words for myself

All I need now

is the power

the will and

the courage

to take a big big leap

confidently

strongly

I need to keep reminding myself

I got nothing to lose

I got no commitment for now

and I ain't gonna give up so easily

Make a move!!

Take action!!!

把头往上抬仰望着夜空

看着那皎洁如白玉的月亮

虽然已经不是在同一个地方

但还是依旧的美丽动人

很想把这一刻都定格

但这么做是很不妥当

时间一去不回

回忆就只能是回忆

只能把眼光向前看

看来我也是时候把我的脚步放快了

毕竟一直以来我都是把脚步放慢

慢慢的观察四周围的人、事、物

整个生活步调都要比别人还慢

现在，看来是已经不再允许我这么做

也许在未来的某一天

当我的一切都定了下来

可能可以重新的放慢脚步

牵着自己喜欢的人

慢慢的体验生活、享受生活

我

就是那么一个我

那个人前嘻嘻哈哈

人后就静得可怕的我

总会在那寂静无声的夜里

对着屏幕

敲打着键盘

安静的聆听着自己

然后慢慢的让情绪一点一点的释放出来

有时会失控般无声的痛哭流泪

有时却可以控制着情绪的暴走

当一切恢复平静

我也大概已经渐入梦乡

隔天醒来

又可以在人前嘻嘻哈哈不断

也许我真的把一切都压抑得好好的

所以朋友都不能轻易察觉到我的这一面

除了从我文章里看出一些端倪

“酒逢知己千杯少，话不投机半句多”

这话可是千真万确

p/s: 倒数一个星期

Origin of my Friendships

Come to think of it
Most of my friendships or my networks were built based on one thing

Which is BASKETBALL!!
This is what I can really think of when i reviewing my past friendship and discover till the root of it

There's always be BASKETBALL

From there

My network just expanded and expanded

Then reach out to others

Throughout all the years I have been playing basketball

The fellas that I have known through this sports are still increasing

No matter the good ones or the bad ones

I am still glad that I have met these guys

The bad ones might just be forgotten
For the good ones

Most of them I think of them as my bros
My brothers!
I am treasuring these relationships

Maybe most of you will think another way round

But no matter how

I still will think of you all as my BROS

Maybe most of the times i speak very straight forward

And you all might felt quite uneasy and annoyed with it

Hence I'm gonna apologize to all of you here

And thanks you all for bearing with me for such long time

I do appreciated that

So, Thanks Again
I just don't know what can I do without you all
=)

皎洁明媚的月亮

高高地挂在天上

此时此刻我在想

慢慢就陷入惆怅

生活就将迈向新的方向

很多事情让我晕头转向

不怕成为不了一名大将

是自己还搞不清楚方向

最近真的是事情一箩筐

自己都还没真正的反应过来

但是我相信一切都会有解答

现在的我

正在做着最后的挣扎

就像快要溺毙了急着滑动着手脚想要呼吸到那么一口气

我仿佛就处于一个进退两难的局面

不做任何挣扎而死去

或者极力挣扎直到筋疲力尽而亡

唉~~

年纪也不轻噜~~

过了下个月

2字头的岁月也只剩下一半了

可以挥霍的青春也所剩无几

到现在身上还是一无所有

即不能够让家人过上好生活

也更别说拥有个情人老婆

即没一个属于自己的家

也更别说是自己的一辆车

所有的所有

不能怨谁

要怨的话，就怨自己

Lol...
Hey guys, I am back..
I think my blog is becoming less and less frequently update already..
The last update was a month ago..
Damn...
LAZY ME~~!

Alright,
It's already 2nd May by the time I write this post..
So it's almost half of 2013..
And it's the middle of final exam period for UTAR student..
Come to think of it..
I admit that I was quite freak out with the exam currently..
Cuz it's the matter of stay or leave, abandon or complete..
There're things playing in my minds when it's nearer to the end of the semester..
I'm just totally blur and dunno what to do, or where should I go..
And one thing I know is that I am carrying the "FACE" of my family..
Hence I shouldn't done somethings that will disgrace my family..
But yet I have been doing it since the first semester of my Uni life..
I can nearly see a big capital letter "L" on my forehead already..

Anyhow..
Life still goes on..
Whether there would changes or not..
Just stay tuned and see how it would be..

"Play like a young man, Think like a mature man"

与决赛又再一次的擦肩而过。。
是的。。
昨天晚上，是我参加的篮球比赛的四强赛。。
谁赢了，就可以挺进决赛。。
但是很遗憾的，我们输了那么的两分。。
不多不少，刚刚好一颗球———两分。。
结果我们就只能放眼在今晚的3-4名的比赛。。
心里总觉得不是味儿。。
毕竟，没能给队友们帮上了什么忙。。
只会越帮越忙。。
稳定性-----没有
效率-------没有
技术-------没有
而且比赛的氛围也没有很好。。。

是时候了吧~？
差不多该停止做梦了吧~？
虽然清楚地知道，再怎么的努力，也应该没剩下多少时间了。。
而且也清楚知道，再怎么的努力，也应该当不成什么代表了。。
该是时候沉淀下来，把梦藏在内心深处。。
只在那夜深人静、夜黑风高的夜里，才慢慢的拿出来，细细的回味了吧~？

#Basketball For Life# ??

long waited update

hell yeah...
finally i have come back to here once more...
sorry my long ignored private space of mine...
not my intention to ignore you..
hahaha...

alright..
continue with the post now..

the passing weekend was something for me...
1st - one of my bros birthday..
2nd - attending friend's convo...

for the 1st one..
i think is the first time i celebrate his birthday after knew him for so long..
first we planned to leave the time for him and his girl for the birthday celebration..
but i was told by his girlfriend that she has order a customized cake which weight about 2kg..
therefore, i went and ask the teammates see whether any of them would like to attend or not..
sadly not all can attend...
so we would just go with the rest of us..
his girlfriend was totally nervous bout celebrating his birthday...
and i kept telling her relax...
haha...
it's quite funny but very sweet though... =D
in the end, birthday surprise successful i guessed~?
and happy birthday to him..

2nd one is where one of my ex-housemate a.k.a my coursemate has ask me to attend his convo on sunday..
i've promised him to go and bought him a hand craft doll as present..
and the night before his convo, we are having a supper session just before the celebration of my bro's birthday..
i have been informed of the good news from him that he will going to be promoted as audit manager after 2 months, which 1 year since he starts working in that company since May last year...
and he had invited me to travel to KL two months later to find him..
i am glad that he had achieve success after a short period after finish study...
i felt kinda guilty to myself as others already move on to the other stage of their life already and i am still struggling and staying on the current stage like stuck in the muddy road...
it is a mix feeling of joy and guilt when seeing others finished their study and attended their convo...
so i guess i am pretty useless most of the time ya..

so just be it..
gonna hit the sack in a while...
good day, good morning and good night peeps...
=)

傻瓜，也蛮幸福吧？

我承认我很不喜欢一些人在背地里说三道四，而我自己也并非是这种人。
（除非情况需要我这样做以外）
俗语说得好：明枪易挡，暗箭难防。
我是个很单纯、憨直的家伙，有什么东西你都可以直接当着我面跟我说，好过在我背后说东说西的。
当着我面说，起码我还会视情况如何来找正确的对策，可能还有朋友可以做，因为我会衡量之前相处的好与坏而给与反应。
反而如果你要在背后来阴的，要么你我到死都不知道或都不被识破，要么让我知道后大闹一顿然后断绝来往。
我虽然算是个会记仇的人，但是我懂得给与别人机会。
如果我给了机会还是一样的话，那只好说再见了。
相信我已经把我很不喜欢被冤枉或被点名在跟我一点都扯不上关系的事物说了很多遍了。
我再重复，我真的不是很喜欢这样的感觉。
而且这也是蛮挑战我的忍耐度的，因为是我最不喜欢的前几名。。
当被给予不存在的罪名，然后再在面前咄咄逼人的被数落一番，自己也会觉得不好受吧~？
以其人之道还治其人之身，总有一天自己也会被他人以同样的方式对待。
况且，在口舌之战中称王称后的，很好听吗？会得到优待吗？
话说得没错，口齿伶俐的人，八九不离十也是个聪明伶俐的人。
但若从口中说出的净是些缺乏智慧的言论，说到底也只不过是在耍嘴皮子、耍小聪明罢了，根本称不上是个聪明人，还是该小心聪明反被聪明误。
我并不那么会举一反三，口条并不是那么好，所以很多时候我都是静静的听人家说。
但是起码我还会一点点分辨什么可以说，什么不可以说。
这也多得我妈从小的训导。
而且我妈从小就灌输我“能忍则忍”的概念，让我可以把事情看得更开一些，以至于避开一些不必要的烦恼。
所以我都把视野放宽，也不会拼了老命去钻牛角尖，人也比较开朗一些，更不会对问题久久都纠缠不放。

人生活着，也不过那短短的几十年，何必总是让烦恼把自己搞得那么的痛苦。
把视野放宽、放大，专注与快乐的事情和回忆，忽略不开心的那一块，那人也自然而然的变得更开朗些。
也许，也会长命一些。

或许，可以把自己当成一个“大傻瓜”吧~~~！
做个开心的傻瓜应该胜过做个烦恼多多的普通人吧~？
哈哈哈哈哈~！

A Brand New Year 2013

Muahahahaha....
I think it's been a very long time till my latest blog post...
But..
Who cares~?
Anyways, it's already another brand new year..
So, the count is reset and start all over again...
NEAT~!
=P

Alright..
Stop fooling around already...
I know it's quite late to blog about new year and Christmas already...
So, I'm not gonna make it very long...
Just simple will do...

How I celebrate these holidays~?
Oh ya..
One word with six letters...
S.I.M.P.L.E.

A simple dinner with bunch of buddies on a nice restaurant...
After that some dessert session with them..
Then went back home before 12am..
For new year eve..
Outing with my "sis" and her friends for a drink at Autocity...
We went there quite late due to the traffic congestion near to Juru there...
Me and her watched the fireworks inside the car when we still finding parking slot around there...
Then afterwards go find my bros to checkout what they discussing about...
Cause one of my bros is getting married on this coming Sunday ( 6 / 1 / 2013 )...
And we are his groomsmen, so need to discuss some stuffs together..
I guess within this year, i will be getting more and more weddings news from my friends around me..
So, just wish them live happily ever after...
Looking forward on this coming Sunday...
Hahaha...

Finally..
Attach the photo of the last day of last year...
Happy New Year 2013~!